Don't despise my Shortcomings
Guilt

We leave Cyra still weeping, believing in Naqi, and being ignored by her husband.

In the hotel room where Rania was staying...

Naqi who was worried that something would happen with Rania also directly pushed into the room. Sure enough Rania still holds her stomach and is restless with sweat splashing on her body. Naqi knew a little about how to torture her pain.

"Rania. Let's go to the hospital." Naqi seemed very anxious about Rania's condition.

Rania, who knew Naqi, grasped Naqi's hand, and shook her head weakly.

"Why? You are very rich and must be examined." - Naqi, trying to persuade Rania, to follow her example. Go to the hospital to get treatment.

"I don't want to, I just want you to stay here. Promise me honey, you'll be next to me, regardless of my age." Rania forced to speak even though she was spelled out in saying it.

Naqi only nodded, his heart ached at Rania's condition, moreover he said as if he was indeed his age soon. Naqi could only hold Rania's hand as if with the gangs the pain Rania would decrease.

Rania felt calmer in her heart when there was Naqi beside her. Without him knowing elsewhere there is a heart that is hurt because Naqi prefers to come to him.

Naqi was also beset with feelings of guilt. Naqi was not indifferent to Cyra, for thinking too much about Rania. Naqi just avoiding his heart would feel even more guilty if he saw Cyra or said something to his wife. It will hurt more when you do that. So Naqi prefers to ignore Cyra and not see Cyra's expression when he leaves her alone.

Naqi also felt the same pain, when he was faced with a reality that was difficult for him to live. However, she chose Rania because she felt that Rania needed her more. In Rania's position must be difficult. With the condition he was sick, without any seoarang he had. Here the concern of fellow men is also Naqi consider. He was willing to abandon his happiness for the sake of a humanitarian instinct to help the more needy.

Naqi did not know until when Rania would survive, how if indeed he had a long life. For the rest of his life he felt lonely. How guilty Naqi would have been if it had happened to him.

Naqi sat beside Rania rubbing her black hair and clasped the woman's hand until Rania was closed while she, unable to close her eyes for a second. The shadow of Cyra, his wife's sweet smile became a frightening specter for him to imagine.

"I'm sorry Ra, I'm sorry. I've been a very bad person to you. I'm granting you your worst lead. I broke your heart. Though from the beginning you were very afraid that a situation like this would come, but I actually gave that wound," Naqi's mind without feeling a clear grain escaped from the corner of her eye. Perhaps this time was also Naqi's lowest point. He felt that the most evil man who broke someone's heart, moreover that person was already in his heart.

"Lord, I leave my soul mate line to you. I was just trying to follow my heart. Hope your soul mate is the best." Naqi tried to leave everything in the hands of God. He will follow as the water flows.

Tonight Naqi could not close his eyes. His regret and guilt made his mind continue to glare far away there. "What about Cyra, what is she doing now? Whether he could sleep or just like himself who until morning almost greeted him he still could not close his eyes at all.

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Cyra pressed Meta's name, only that name was in her brain. Maybe with the presence of Meta he was a little entertained. Well, maybe Cyra thinks that Meta is a clown figure in charge of entertaining his heart.

[Hemz.apa Cin, it's still early in the morning you, can sleep again. I'm also still sleepy.] Meta may have thought that Cyra contacted him to ask about his shooting schedule.

[Met... Meta. i.. hihihi.] Cyra just broke her tears. It makes Meta immediately woke up, seemed to be exposed to thousands of volts of electricity. He immediately sat down even his life immediately collected.

[Cin, you why? Did something happen to you?] ask Meta very frantically from there.

[Met, I need you.] That's all Cyra can say. His tongue seemed stiff and difficult to say long. Cyra immediately sent out the location of her.

While Meta was there, when he saw the location that Cyra sent immediately he thought ugly. In fact, he thought that Cyra was framed by someone who wanted to enjoy the comfort of her child's body. His mind somehow imagined the nonchalant Cyra.

Meta immediately snatched his hoodie and snatched his car keys. The car he bought a few weeks ago. Well ever since he became Cyra's manager, the insider's been guaranteed. So that he can now have a car, even though it is not a luxury car, but Meta has it without credit so that it makes him feel the richest person.

So panicked was Meta's mind, because Cyra sent his location at the hotel. He was unconsciously wearing a sarong. Once in the hotel lobby Meta just realized that he was still wearing a sarong. "Jeez, come on because you called me back to sleep. I forgot that sarong is still stuck. Good thing the gloves try if the boxser petrik image does not collapse my manners." Meta patted his jidat.

After asking the hotel attendant, Meta was finally delivered to Cyra's room. Meta entered the room with a million questions that made him tremble in fear when he saw the archery he should not have seen.

Meta's thoughts got worse as Cyra's clothes scattered on the floor with the interior scattered. Bermuda triangle in the corner, sunglasses with black color is also not far from the same colored bermuda triangle. However, the flower petals are also no less messy adding to the hotel room like a broken ship.

Meta smothered his mouth when he saw how Cyra looked.

"Cin, what's going on? Who's the jerk who made you this way?" Meta clenched his teeth and palms also clenched, it feels like he wants to make a battered on the man who makes his son so confused.

Meta approaches and Cyra wakes up trying to hold her blanket so as not to show her twin assets that are even as big as a field orange.

"Stop Cin!!! you just sleep. You don't make the I'm antenna instantly emit electricity. You may forget that I'm also a man who could have been caliph and make you regret later." Meta asks Cyra to understand being in her position. Where he is also a guy can immediately lust when he sees what he should not see.

"Tell me who's the guy who made you this way. Let I'm circumcision again quailnya. Let's know how men feel." Meta seemed very furious to immediately know who the man who dared to hurt his adopted son.