When Demon Child Become Human
A Conversation II

"Your presence; your life; your conduct, even your existence, I hate it."

The word that was thrown sounded very frozen; crashing, made me only able to fall silent under the moonlight that somehow seemed sad anyway. However, the young man still showed a minimal face of expression, making his two golden eyes seem to give a gripping impression of its own.

At least, until he turned and saw the waves approaching.

"When enlightened through Sen's memory, I found it hard to sleep for a few days .. see what Fate and Sen went through in their home world, as well as the reason why Fate had to be completely guarded. See as far as what they do and sacrifice for their world ...."

"What was originally asked to help Sen, over time I considered Fate as my own sister. Whether he was conscious or not, but all this time I kept him from afar and often noticed him. Given Gaia; the real danger, it still hasn't been resolved. Slowly I realized .. His gaze for you changed, similar to his gaze when he saw Sen." And golden eyes glanced sharply at me. "He likes you."

Instantly my breath was stolen over the heart beat faster, especially given such treatment. He continued saying, "Every time you talk about yourself, Fate smiles a lot. He also watches you from afar, like I keep him from afar."

Lux breathed a heavy sigh.

"Eat if you're wondering, Fate can be made worried and anxious. It is not visible from the outside, but I who always pay attention to it know..it is very protective of you. No wonder Fate acted recklessly and sacrificed herself for you so stupid. And you who are so, deserve to be with him? What are you doing for her, other than making her more troubled?"

Then Lux looks as if she remembers something. "Oh, about the hassles ... Red, do you know what happened to Fate after you returned the Gifts from Metatron?"

Wait, why did he suddenly ask that? A long time passed .. And somehow the discomfort began to dominate the heart, making me shake slowly and grasp the tip of the shirt with both hands when the heart beat a little faster. It was as if the body was reflexively preparing for what I was about to hear. And sure enough, Lux immediately laughed.

The laughter that sounded painful in my ears seemed to be a scorn in itself.

"of course! Of course he didn't tell you."

"What ... means?" And I said that very slowly.

But Lux looked at me again with a smile of sarcasm painted on her face. "In that snowy night, with his frail body still adapting to the Grace of Metatron, he was looking for you."

My eyelids suddenly widened to hear it.

"I helped him to find. Because even though you have asked EVE with Fate's permission level, your whereabouts are not allowed to be told to anyone. I finally forced him to rest. As soon as we got to the hospital, he collapsed from a high fever. And it should be treated for a week more."

So after that ... Fate high fever?! Ah, maybe because it's too long to be outdoors with a body that is still adapting to the snowy nights? To myself even fall asleep for a few days - a while, why doesn't anyone give me any news about Fate? Moreover, he and I were both hospitalized, right?!

"Nobody knows about Fate being sick. Not even Crist knew this," Lux said as if understanding what I was asking in mind, "but ... Kaidan knows."

And both of my hands grasping the ends of the clothes spontaneously squeezed, like the heart as if it had stopped for a few seconds. For disbelief-ah, did Professor Kaidan know about it? Why not give me news of this problem? Maybe I don't want to be worried about having a good rehabilitation?

"On that day, I lost my respect for him. He failed to become the 'Weighing One'." Lux is also grunting. "If it wasn't for Lucian, maybe Kaidan would have lost one hand."

Then what else is this, losing one hand?! Then Lux attacked Professor Kaidan in a life-and-death fight?! Is that how emotional he is? I increasingly do not understand, but Lux is indeed a descendant of Rectorem and has received direct upbringing from Sen... can suppress him-God, why can it happen like that? Was it because of a request to close my existence to him?

God, why did it end up messed up? My head ached to imagine it, provoking the right hand to rise slowly and clutching the strands of red hair. Moreover, the sea night breeze rippled little by little carrying an unpleasant frozen taste.

I don't know, it turns out that a simple wish can have an impact so far.

"Ah, never mind, annoyed to remember it too. We're not talking about him anyway, but if it wasn't for Kaidan withholding information, your misunderstanding and Fate wouldn't have gone long." Spontaneous Lux scrambled her black hair in frustration and looked at me in annoyance. "It doesn't mean you don't have any faults either."

"The day before you came back, that night I found Fate crying after calling you. I realized he was walking out of the mansion, but when I called he did not respond and suddenly just disappeared. Of course I did not stay silent but at the same time Sen actually whispered 'this one is not your part'. But the fact that you hurt her feelings and made her cry . I realized, back then, I didn't like you. Hating you even."

Lux also folded her hands in front of her chest.

"What's more up to proposing, marriage is more complicated than you think. Not everything is filled with fun, what else for you a less educated boy. I also can't keep Fate because my own marriage is close, so I let it go. But looking at you ... makes me doubt, do you deserve to be with him?"

"The answer is no." Quickly I snatched his words.

Before long, silence soared that the sound of waves touching the beach lips sounded loud. I thought he would keep saying, whatever it is, it's a pique to me, but now Lux is just standing there with her two golden eyes staring straight. Like waiting for me to say the continuation of the sentence.

However, what he said was all true, a bitter reality and I had no pretext to defend myself. What else ....

"Me too, hate myself."

Then my eyes immediately turned to the side, looking at the sea beside the young man who was minimal to reflect starlight. It may be covered in clouds, or it may be my own clue that I am on a difficult and painful path, but I am always left out of danger and still standing.

To this day.

I have also accepted myself as a demon .. or a demon, more precisely.

"I also judge myself to be so pathetic. I also realized, it shouldn't exist and stand like .. now, in this moment. Nor do I know why I have always survived disasters and many have sacrificed for me, and the cause of being in this world. But if you think about it all does not mean so much. Most importantly, what to do now."

Suddenly I looked back at Lux, even with a small chuckle. "I also wonder why Fate can like me, is he not wrong choice? But because of that, I want to keep moving forward; study everything well. That's why you wouldn't mind going through this, training and moving to Eother. I want experience. But I don't want to take Fate off just like that. I am ... really, love her."

Because I am like this is still far from being appropriate. Even the chaos behind me was caused by me not knowing it myself. What else will I have to do with Fate? I could've hurt her unconsciously-ah, which was more horrible to imagine.

"Right what you said, I'm just a poorly educated brat. Life like this is foreign. But ... it's never too late, if I'm gonna try, right?"

Spontaneously I was provoked to give a smile that spread from the heart. Maybe because I knew someone was really paying attention to Fate and caring about him this far away. Or understand Lux willingly giving a reprimand like this.

Although it sounded bitter, I was aware and astonished at all the miracles God gave me in my present life. It is fitting that I take a good look at it and be grateful for everything that happened.

"Then don't make this all go to waste." His golden eyes seemed to glitter under the moon. "Different from others. Same with Lucian, I don't hesitate to kill you."

Instantly the sentence made me remember the words of Head Master Lucian. It seems like the Rectorem family is indeed this critical and outspoken, it deserves Fate easy to blend in with them.

"Will I try. It may also take a lot of time to really understand. So if you don't mind, would you give a reprimand like this again?"

"Huh. Don't expect me to be soft on you, I'm not a too flabby Crist."

"I also want you to take me seriously."

Because this is what makes me feel less, myself.

I'm afraid that in the future I can't make Fate as happy as he should be. Don't want my incident with Aion to happen again. Because it really just wants to maintain love, which inexplicably difficult to appear. And once it comes ..fear of being destroyed and end up hard to forget, like it used to be.

Therefore, not wanting to fill life is just a matter of failing, starting again, and returning to failure. It's time to fill this blank sheet with something new.

And my words just now, managed to make the tip of the young man's strong lips attracted faintly.