When Demon Child Become Human
␑| Psychosis

I don't know why, my eyes are on one.

The eyes of soot incessantly focused on the calm ripples of the puddle of water refracted perfectly a glimmer of light that escaped from the sky. Surprisingly, my shadow was not there.

As far as the eye could see; including where I was squatting, covered by a puddle of water. Each falling speck created waves to spread out little by little; making the water change its color momentarily like an illusion.

But I kept watching every speck fall on this huge pool, because it reminded me of an uncertain dream. For to me who could not even lift a finger .. it was sadness to swallow slowly and before long I felt pity because, again, the head could not think.

I'm numb.

If this self has wings, can I fly freely to reach everything? Whatever it is, it all ends the same. Look ahead, everyone distorted and gradually disappeared. So, I turned back to closing my eyes.

For, all, in vain ....

But shouldn't it be staring at the sky, where all memories are stored? For if a body were trapped in a sea trough, the sky would continue to glitter; amazing, when it looked at it. So I spread out my arms as if reaching heaven----

Someone pulled my hand.

I was surprised to blink a few times because the view was so faded and dazzling, forcing me to frown but keep looking up while squinting; focusing the vision on the person who did so.

Despite the shadows, Professor Kaidan faintly saw me pulling my left hand up high. Her expression .. horrible. Is he angry?

"Wake up!" he exclaimed with a very high tone, a furious face also looked coldly at me to make things worse.

However, he was unable to obey orders. It feels ... limp, because the frost is starting to fill. The end of the fingers was cold. Breath heavy. What's more, he pressed my wrist so hard it felt numb.

"Hurry, wake!" his orders have been to many times, but now by embracing my body from behind even though the left hand has not been released.

When this limp body was lifted, the sound of the can tinkling falling made me realize many people were surrounding us. Their views clearly paint a concern, so that there is a covering of the mouth like what happened is not ordinary.

And it's true.

My front shirt was covered in blood to the point of dripping on the concrete barrier of the academy fountain, creating a slight red smudge on the puddle. And my left hand was unceasingly draining the red liquid even though Professor Kaidan was pressing down hard.

And they're talking about something? Gelagat looked very panicked but .. My eyes, heavy.

They're screaming, right? Honey, I can't hear anything because the humming fills the ears, the eyelids are also only able to open partially together in a strong dizziness hit. All my strength was gone, not even to shut my mouth.

Then my head droops.

Slowly, my consciousness disappeared.

...****************...

"Caterine, seriously just a drink can hurt yourself that badly?! He lost a lot of blood and fainted for days!"

"Of course, people who have the intention of self-injuring must find a gap. But for now, he's fine."

"Hows it? It doesn't make sense."

"It doesn't make sense for us to think normally, but not for him. What's more the head is still a mess, the chances of it happening are getting bigger. You must have heard Red had a panic attack when we got word we lost two Execution Department students? At that time Fate was only injured and already in handling, not so severe but it was quite shaking him. What about this thing? Seeing Fate fall down before my eyes. His brain is unable to process what happened, Kaidan."

"So--"

"Yes, heavy shock. He became extraordinarily confused by the problem he was having and did not know how to deal with it. Ended empty. When empty, the brain will reflexively try to make it come back to life by hurting itself. This is because the brain function that plays a role in providing the pain response is the same. For example, if we feel hurt, the whole body also feels pain or weakness because the two affect each other. But if this is not dealt with immediately .. he will end up addicted. Even if it's immortal, we certainly don't know of any other side effects if he continues like this right?"

"There is, of course. Crist must have met you, right? It's the only way, Kaidan."

"Are you sure about what he's suffering?"

"Always remembering the traumatic event even feels as if it is repeating the event; tendency to avoid; aloof and difficult to establish relationships with others; unstable emotional changes; difficulty concentrating, ja. But I have not been able to decide further without an in-depth examination. If you want to do a check, of course we need permission from him."

"Maybe this is what he meant by drowning in darkness? If so, he is quite weak .., and this happens again. It could be that in the future he will continue like this."

"That's the problem, Kaidan. Hmmm, maybe .. because eternity along with living alone without direction and often seeing events that make shock, he ended up like this. Yes, I think the emptiness in life makes things worse. Further guidance could help."

"It's okay to talk about this in front of him? Red ... sit down and look this way."

"I understand you're worried. But sadly, I doubt he understands this conversation. Or realize what happened. He was conscious, but not completely. I'm sure he's in a brief psychotic episode; can't deny which thoughts and which realities, what else after losing that much blood. We can try to get him to talk, it would be great if he could respond."

"Caterine, get here .. Can I handle it? I'll also ask Lucian for further permission."

"Until when do you want to continue this, Kaidan?"

"Now and beyond. From the beginning Red was my responsibility."

"Hoya, oya, I expected you'd answer that. But know your limits, Kaidan. I'll send one of my best men to help you, you're busy like your brother. You know your son was never okay from the start, right?"

"Yes, I know. That's why I'm proud of him ...."

Suddenly something touched my head and it surprised me. Suddenly I felt anxious; where the eyes swept around, all just like a hazy shard of glass. I fear. Fearful. Whatisthis? What the hell's going on? Heart rate racing; breath feels tight; dizzy like being hit by something until the stomach like being snared strong.

"... Because it has survived so far."

However, gradually the head feels stroked gently as if afraid to hurt even if just pressing.

"Red, do you want to accept Father?"

Slowly breathing was good, my eyes were trying to focus where I was looking. Up ahead, there was a face I knew so well. It was a little confusing but .. calm, and the expression was so shady.

"Fate is alive. Now he is in treatment. If you've improved .. would you like to see her together?"

Huh uh?

Instantly my head lowered because there was a hand sticking out there. Big hands. Looks solid. Wait, Professor Kaidan? Professor Kaidan .. I would like to name him but cannot. Really limp, end up just silencing this vibrating mouth tightly.

One side, a faint, gripping sound filled the head. It was as if whispering that I would lose that grip if I didn't grab it, right now. Knowing this, something like slashing the contents in the ribs.

Not want. Not accept. Not want.

And the right hand felt clenched until warm spread on my pale fingers. Apparently, I've been holding her and she's getting my hands on her. A moment of relief appeared. Ended up getting a soft embrace from him.

It's so comfortable, until my heart shakes small.

"Professor ... Kaidan."

"Yes, Red, it's Dad."

And the elusan on the back is so soothing as to drive away all the cold snares that are wrapped around itself. Instantly I ... Dad, I'm scared-ah, I'm crying again.