When Demon Child Become Human
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"Huh, hahahahahaha!"

I chuckled, then kept laughing.

Trying to drink canned coffee in a grip to get rid of the tingling-cannot, I just returned to laughing.

Then I turned to her, Fate still with her serious face making me even more bitter.

I closed my face using the left palm and propped the elbow up to the thigh, trying to hold back the tingling.

Amidst the laughter, I took a deep breath and let it out slowly.

Already much calmer, I slightly sipped the canned coffee that was already cold.

It's cold tonight.

"Handler."

"I'm not kidding and I can't lie." Quickly Fate replied to me.

Hearing that, I grinned.

I went back to the coffee. Long time after all, only one can. Maybe because I drank it a little bit. Very few.

Moreover, the warmth had turned cold as snow continued to fall over the night; as the lost warmth left it frozen.

"Indeed ..born of the devil on their will. It even killed humans. My presence just means destruction."

The memory suddenly reappears in the head.

About the people who stabbed me; holding me to the ground with a big garden fork. Wounds all over the body are proof of that.

Although it has been a long time, all is clear in the body. Mute witnesses to the pain spread to the crown.

My body became cold as blood unceasingly flowed. I could do nothing but yell in a suffocated throat, until the pain completely engulfed me and I lost consciousness.

When conscious ... destroyed.

The city was destroyed, everyone died, but a long slender sword in my hand.

Seeing that I'm hysterical. The breath is also interrupted. I was so scared.

The fire went everywhere too.

I didn't mean to do that.

Ancient buildings collapsed. Houses collapsed. Little children cry in front of the corpses of their shapeless parents.

I-I didn't mean---

"You are tormented and near death, it's just your attempt to survive" said the girl sitting at the side, waking me from her own thoughts.

And unknowingly, it turns out I've been gripping my head with one hand and leaning my elbow against my thigh.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

"It's not a reason to kill, I'm not going to die anyway."

"But you feel pain" his returned dream stunned me.

Now I see both hands with my head still down. A moment later he said, "A punishment worthy of a sinful creature like me."

Even ... If one day I could die and meet God, God would definitely put me into the deepest hell.

I have committed an unforgivable sin. This immortality and pain, a punishment that is worth it.

That's why I always pray, because it's the only way I can survive.

"God is Most Forgiving. Otherwise, you won't get a second chance like now."

What say?

Huh, that's bullshit.

I have many sins and I do not want to add them because only with sins that are now, can not be forgiven. Where-ah-ah, why is my hand shaking incessantly?

I felt something like burning in my chest.

I ... My hand shook furiously until it desperately grasped the right wrist so that my canned coffee would not fall.

"But I .. akh, have ... killed him." My voice was slightly shrill, feeling like my throat was choking.

What the hell's going on? Feels like a--

"Because of your remorse, God forgives you."

Drinks fell.

The coffee chocolate stained the snow-white on the ground along with my tears that came out without excuse.

What the hell's going on?

This feeling ..- this feeling-I don't deserve it!

I clutched my chest tightly using both hands.

I clenched my teeth, trying my hardest to push something overflowing in my chest until it felt tight. Can barely breathe.

"Agh, but--ah, kill .. dear--"

"And he loves you too. Maybe I won't be able to replace him, but I will accompany you, as myself."

Instantly I remembered his last words ....

Remember, I'm always here.

None of us want to end up like this, but we can't escape the snare of the devil that keeps following you.

This is also my way of atoning for sins. I sacrificed myself for you because I wanted you to smile again.

Maybe this is a bit selfish of me, but .. I love you, more than you can imagine.

My cry broke, unable to anymore I continued to hold the feeling that filled my chest.

I kept wiping away the tears that were endlessly flowing until it hurt under the eyes.

Back wiping. Tears are still flowing. Hot face. Back wiping. I-i---

"It's okay to cry."

I feel ... Fate clasped my hand, stroking my head. I feel---

"Aaagh!"

Tangisku. Unknowingly, I hugged her.

I really can't stand it.

This emotional turmoil is too strong.

I whimper.

Tear down.

Shady.

Crying out. Crying out. Crying out.

Fate embraced me.. Gently, her hands gently stroking my hair.

"Sadness; regret, it's your true feeling, you have a heart."

"Ah. Heh. Demon---"

I want to say, but I can't. Losing out of emotional outbursts.

I clenched my teeth. Tears still have no sign of stopping. This taste ... this taste---

"You have a heart, maybe it's deep within you, because .. No demon will cry like this."

I hugged him tighter. My hand gripped Fate's back shirt. I put my face on his shoulder.

These feelings .. warm.

"You're human."

I let my emotions overflow.

Fate also did not reject him, he accepted. Hugged me slowly. I slowly brush my head.

I let my eyes keep crying. I let my mouth continue to sob. My breathing began to break, but I let it go. I let all those feelings flow.

I let ....

All this time, I was looking for warmth.

However, he was gone and I was living in loneliness. I felt miserable when I lost all that happiness.

And my immortality is like cultivating the whole pain to be very deep.

I ended up locking myself up, because I didn't know how to break out of this prison. I was held back; shackled, in the past.

For the smile of my loved ones .. is so sweet, like a light of hope.

What if one day, I could see that kind of smile again?

I don't know how much time has passed, my tears have dried up. Breathing also returns to regularity. I felt very weak, but .. light.

Unknowingly, I was already on Fate's lap. He's not stopping stroking my hair.

My view's dim. Body feels tired.

Slowly, I closed my eyes.

When was the last time I was treated this well?

"Good sleep."