When Demon Child Become Human
␑| Life Purpose?

Slowly, my consciousness returned with a twinkle of light infiltrating from behind the eyelid that was still closing. Then a flash like to release me subtly and bring to full consciousness, so that the eyes reflexively try to open even though very weak.

"Oh, you're conscious."

So my slightly shaded lens led to a figure in front. I blinked a few times and gradually remembered that he was Sen. His hand touched my head and stroked gently, perhaps it was what made me realize that it felt a coolness there; it brought its own serenity.

Wait a minute, I'm .. still alive? But feeling unusually tired, even the petals were only able to open in half with eyes glancing towards him.

"If you ask me what I'm doing, I'm perfecting another Metatron Grace for you, so that your soul can adjust your body. You've passed the test well, Red Sirius." And a smile decorating Sen's face that looks shady.

However, exams? Whatdoes thatmean? But when my lips were forced to open for the sake of asking, only a faint low voice was heard. Ah, my energy feels completely gone especially the head is really heavy. I ended up breathing a long sigh through my mouth because the tightness hit the recesses of the chest.

Sen, as if realizing what I wanted to ask, spoke up. "There are two exams you have to go through. First, the reason why I attacked you was because I wanted to know how far you would fight to get Fate again. Fate needs someone other than me to be by her side. Because I'm ...."

I don't know why Sen's expression changed when he said that, but he shook his head and smiled again.

"And the second, the reason I told you about Gaia is also an ordeal .. What choice would you choose, your own life or Fate's freedom? Because Fate won't die, but you will. With the happiness that you have gained; the life that you want you finally managed to achieve ... With that as a scale, which one did you choose? And you chose Fate. That's why .. you graduated, Red."

Is that so? I don't understand the meaning of the first one, because why give me a test about protecting Fate? Sen.... is here now, Fate doesn't need me anymore. Because that young man has more right to him than I do. Recalling this .. My vision ended especially when Sen's hand came off the head, the feeling so stifling attacked and I began to cough violently; producing a great gasping breath.

Sometimes I try to swallow saliva in the throat when entering and exhaling the air slowly to relieve the slightly squeezed alveolus. Also my arms are forced to support the body, trying to get up to be easy----

Suddenly, she gently grabbed me back and helped me sit up as if to treat myself with caution, in a pushy tone she said, "You still need an adjustment. Although the age of your soul has been made according to your body, your memory remains. That's why you're feeling weak now."

And he helped me lean into one of the buildings. Then the beautiful blue iris looked over the pair of loving eyes, just as her strong arm rubbed the tip of my head quietly as a strand of silk was also knitted on her thin smiling lips, as if proud of my actions; for my choices, when I just do not want to trouble others anymore.

I don't understand why Sen is this gentle.

I thought he would treat me, who had become a pest between them, as harshly as Lucian so that I was quite surprised by this affectionate act; making me think quite crazy, aspiring to one day be a great person like him.

It may be true that I only met Sen this first time, but a sense of disdain and respect has bloomed in my heart. Plus getting to know him through Fate's stories ....

Could this be one of the reasons he became a state-scope leader - even at such a young age? Fate and Sen; they were both indeed extraordinary. The two complement each other, having their own experiences and advantages makes them special compared to other humans, including myself if held between them-oh, how sad ....

If I had someone I could call big brother, then I wanted Sen to be one of them. Honey, I was created not to know a whole family concept and over time, I feel sorry for myself.

Even a despicable creature like me, had thought to want to be a man who is important enough in Fate's life to make him want to give up fingers to hold. Though, I .. like this .. no more. Looking at them, it felt far away, like Sen who had now stepped back.

I may have lost my mind literally. I ended up breathing deeply and leaning my head against the wall.

Before long there was a rumbling sound on the side-waiting, Fate? I turned my head and was immediately rewarded with both eyes-ah, the color of her eyes .. charming bluish silver finally returned. Then he was silent for a while, continuing to blink until he finally saw me.

"Red?" Slowly his eyes widened, surprised at something. "Different ... there are different."

Suddenly Fate held onto both of my cheeks, then climbed up on the thighs, wait a minute! It's close, too close! Gosh, even his hands were endlessly scouring my body like they were checking something. And he said with an innocent look, "Red, your body ... is it not eternal?"

I laughed a little. In a weak chest, the heart also beats quite fast because it cannot be denied that I am very happy; relieved Fate has returned to fitness. For to me, this kind of Fate is beautiful; it reminds me of the moon that never tires of accompanying me every night.

Seeing my reaction, a pink tinge began to be adorned on her cheeks. Lord, I really want to shout how sweet this one girl is but unable; wanting to raise my hand to embrace her is also powerless.

"Ah, finally the moon princess has woken up."

In that instant I could see clearly .. Fate's eyes were perfectly rounded over the unusual emotion painted there. Confusion, disbelief, fear .. and, longing. Slowly the girl turned around and looked back, right where Sen was standing.

"S ... en?"

Instantly a sincere smile decorate the face said someone who was addressed. I know the meaning of the scythe is stored a lot of emotions for Fate, namely longing and great love is abundant with clarity; and sweet feelings also surround.

Directly Fate tried to get up, although still staggered he tried to run towards Sen. The young man who was still smiling calmly, opened both hands to receive the idol back in his arms.

Finally they embraced each other very tightly even from here, I could hear Fate's unceasingly shaking voice calling out Sen's name. Without even looking at Fate's face I knew .. that she was crying.

Sen, gently continued to hug Fate. Slowly one of his hands went up to gently caress the girl's head. Tirta also flows from both blue eyes like a diamond, as if making it more sparkling. Then his mouth opened, and I don't know what was said but it made Fate hug the young man even tighter. For the full affection ... Sen kissed Fate's head.

No, rather, this .. is envy.

It seems that I was too deep to hide the pleasure of knowing that Fate was back to how it was and worried about me, until I was made to forget by the reality before my eyes, that the girl had calmed down with her loved ones in her arms; it was as if the snow was constantly falling and calling for their reunion. While I was reminded of myself could have died the next minute, as well as the task that was completed.

Fate has met Sen.

It's got here, isn't it? Right too, why am I here ... if I think about it? Suddenly I felt like I was losing my way. I am also a person who has no purpose in life.

My reflexes were forced to get up and step away from there.

What else, right?

With a stagger and slowly so as not to disturb Fate and Sen, I walked in the weight of snow as the feet began to drag steps, leaving a raucous trail over the white expanse.

I don't know what time it is because it's so quiet.

Under the dimness of the silent path, there is only me; in the midst of the cold that embraces, there is only me. Isn't this what it used to be? Looks like I'm back to the beginning, walking alone among the frost that fills around. I should have understood this was going to happen .. But it was really hard, and I could only duck.

Gradually, I started to shiver. This shaking hand I was trying to raise and saw the tip of the fingers start to turn blue, in harmony with the breath vapors unceasingly visible from me as the snow continued to touch the skin, also fill the empty recesses. I held both hands and brought them closer to my chest.

Feels no longer able to continue walking, immediately my body stiffened with increasingly burdened eyes.

When my agent caught a park bench, I immediately directed myself to rest there. Slowly leaning against the body with a face that looked up, staring at the white blobs descending bit by bit in silence. Sontak realized, had been sitting in the front yard of the academy near the fountain I used to occupy.

It reminds me of the night when my heart felt so ambiguous, sitting alone, and then the girl found me; listening to my indistinct plots; calming me. It was the first time in a long time that I cried in front of other people. And finally, the heart opens again after a long time of being tightly closed.

Now, will anyone find me?

The winter of February is not friendly.

At least, for me.

"... Red?"

Immediately I set my eyes on the origin of the sound, Professor Kaidan there with a worried look was also confused simultaneously. Knowing the uniform I was wearing I understood my guardian had just returned home from duty but seeing him, as soon as the emotions in his chest overflowed until his face was hot along with tears finally came out without permission. I want to call him. However, the turbulent feeling got in the way as if a heartbeat was stuck in the throat.

"Geez, kid, what's going on? Why are you crying?"

He sat at the side, begging me to say, even in a very weak voice; trembling; more screeching and drowning because I was utterly defeated by my own feelings.

"Is it okay to love someone .. who someone else already has?"

Instantly I closed my eyes tightly making the tip of the fertilizer increasingly rushing water, just as a stiff hand actually clenched strong like desperately dampening abundant emotions.

"If I may, why does it feel .. painful?"

Without saying he immediately grabbed me, tightly, his sturdy arms also stroked my back making my cry finally break. But I shouldn't be like this.

I should have stayed strong, become an adult and independent man. But that is like I am forced to be strong; to be forced to be patient, when I am alone. Someone beside me has gone with a more worthy heart.

And I hate being lonely the most.

My love has only been bloomed once, after being ignored for maybe more than a thousand years, and finally forced to die. I used to spend both eyes to keep an eye on him to always be in good condition, now I can only use to find the remnants of his feelings. Or see him happy, from a distance.

I crave affection, but it always ends up messed up in that. It was the second time I felt so lost; it made me feel like a failed individual. I don't know .. loving someone can be so torturous, like this.

I also immersed myself more in the old man ahead, someone I was still left with to reach.

Now it's over, like entering a big competition .. I've lost, without going through a single fight.