Just a little break
Sad Shows From Dreams (Part 2)

What a pleasant shahdu night, not once did he mention the name of his former lover. He told me about his job that he was enjoying a lot, and hoped to build a good career there.

“Nahh, Zid, I told you about my work life. Now what about you?” ask her gently.

I smiled at her question, then lowered my head while drinking my drink.

“Hmm, I don't want to talk about my job. We just move on to another topic, dehh," I said with a little stammering.

“Ouw so,” he said.

With a face that was a bit unhappy with my answer earlier.

“Then in the future you want what?” ask again.

“I want to realize my dream of becoming a professional footballer at Juventus. That's all that's really on my mind,”.

“So, are you serious about becoming a football player?” ask again, frowning.

“Iyya,” my word is short.

“Have you thought about it well?” tanyanya.

“Of course," I said steadily.

“Careers in football it's more or less just ten years loo, Zid. You are now 23 years old. Plus no guarantee for life in her old age,” said Risa.

What he said made me shudder a little. He doesn't underestimate me like everyone else but he's thinking about my future in football.

“But that's my choice, Sa. I tried and always wanted to be what I wanted to be, because I wouldn't be happy to be what others wanted me to be. I want to be myself, with all my weaknesses and strengths.”

“Then will it materialize?” ask with ketus.

“Sure,” I replied with confidence, “I have participated in the selection I told you about, and now just wait for the results.”

“If you qualify later will you go abroad?”

At her question, I heard her tone begin to weaken and her eyes were so focused on me.

I answered him with certainty. “Iyaa, because it was my dream, and I will not waste the opportunity I got it.”

“Although have to leave me?” ask her with a sad face.

“If it must happen, how else,” I replied to him.

Without seeing her eyes fixed on me.

“So it's your dream and ambition at the same time?”

“Not ambition, rather dreams. A man's dream.”

“A man's dream?” ask again.

“Yaa right. A man's dream. A man must always dream about freedom and what he wants from himself, even though his dreams are far away he will be...”

“And sometimes the man does not realize that his dream was already very close to him,” said Risa.

I have not finished my words. Risa has cut my words with her words. Speech that makes me feel a person who is too ambitious.

Until it closes all the best possible things, that happen to me in the near future. Because I think too much about my distant dreams. That night I drove him home.

After our conversation earlier, he suddenly became silent the whole way. It made me unable to sleep all night. Thinking of his words while eating.

The words were wrapped in hope, so I thought if it turned out that he was also starting to have feelings for me. After she rejected me once before, when I expressed my feelings for her. At that time he only regarded me as a friend, he had no feelings for me.

But, actually. It may be true that the words of the wise man of old, the world must be spinning. Now I can feel that he loves me too. I really hope it will happen soon.

In the early morning, at about 03:00 he sent a chat wa message, he also could not sleep since returning to dinner last night. The hallmark of his chat is always to abbreviate difficult words that only he himself knows. If I reply to chat with him, I may not sleep at all until the morning.

Better for this time just sleep, and tomorrow morning just reply with the reason last night was asleep. Well, I think it's better than I got a scolding from my boss for being sleepy at the office. One week after the incident that night, we were getting closer.

There is no barrier for us anymore. Almost every afternoon I pick her up from work and occasionally take her out to dinner. Increasingly intense communication, closeness that sometimes makes our faces redden each other.

It makes me want to commit to our relationship. But that was my mind. If I declare my love to her and then she accepts it. Means the order of my dreams and hopes this year, changed the order.

The third order becomes the second. But maybe this is my chance. I can't miss it, I lost it once. This time I should be able to get it.

Plus it might cover my anxiety about the result of the Juventus selection, which until now has not been decided. At last. On Sunday, July 15th without a second thought I immediately took her to a place that was quite romantic for me. It was on my campus, where the two of us first met.

“Risa,” I said to her in a clean light.

“As long as I live, there are only two big things I have found in this life,”.

He just fell silent and smiled shyly at my stammering and misbehavior in front of him. I continued my words and was very hopeful. So that she would listen to him and accept what I say later.

“The first time I found football in my life. In football I feel my calmness and my ideals."

I swallowed before continuing. "Then the second one" I said with a face that was getting red.

"I found you. In your charm I feel the beauty of love and thank God for creating these eyes to see you and this heart to love you.”

All of those words came out flawlessly smooth from my tongue, and I felt a peace that I wanted so badly to feel before.

She just smiled sweetly as I said, "Hehehe, lebay."

“Loo I'm serious,”.

His face turned red and he was nervous too.

“Risa," I said further.

“Will you be part of my beautiful life story?” ask him.

I have spoken all the words I wanted to say on this beautiful and quiet night. Now it's just waiting for him to answer it, and I wish him the best of the answer this time. He began to look at me. I slowly saw her small lips say.

“Hmm, how about. The answer should be now?” tanyakanya.

“Yes, I've been waiting for these moments for a long time," I said.

“But, before that I have a question,”.

It's like this again, almost the same as it used to be. It was long-winded, and he finally rejected me. Gawat, I have to keep thinking positive. All the signs he's been giving me lately are signs that he loves me too. I have to be sure of that.

“What question is it?” I asked impatiently.

“I want to ask, does your love have legs?” tanyakanya.

“Hmm, you mean?”

“Yaa I just wanted to ask. Does your love have legs?”

“Whatever why with it?” askaku.

I asked him back. I noticed her smile growing between the flowers in the garden of this yard. As if hinting at something.

“Because your love has walked on its legs and picked up the love that is in my heart" he exclaimed with a smile.

His smile grew even more as he said that, as if I saw the eyes of God within him. Ohh, lovely. He's looing.

“So, I was accepted?” many ensure.

“Yaa, that's all I can say," she replied with a smile as sweet as honey.

The song from the sky seemed to open and celebrate the joy of my heart. I ran around the park. Stylish like a footballer who is celebrating his goal against the opponent's goal.

Then after that I sat back down, and as a sign of our creation. I kissed her pure white forehead and was covered in the black light of her hair. Kiss with sincerity and affection.

“Hmm is this one of your dreams this Year, Zid?” askinya.

“Iyya of course, you are one of my dreams. Although the order is somewhat reversed than expected, but it does not matter" I said.

“What is the reverse order?” tanyakanya.

“That's not important, baby," I said.

That was the first word I ever said to her. I'm still a little nervous saying it. “I'm sure it's not something you want to hear. Because it's so boring" I said later.

“Hmm already then. Where are we going after this?” ask Risa.

Tonight, I got the love of the woman I wanted and it was one of my dreams this year. At first this dream was in third place, but life was full of surprises.  Not everything we want goes according to our plan.

Sometimes something else happens outside of our plans. However, if we are wise to respond to it. It turns out that it is just an alternative path from God for us to get better from this life.

My two joys are in their right place this year, living my third dream, which is my biggest dream in life. Then, the morning said hello. It wakes me up and wakes me up from my dreams.