Hate You, Love You
For Love

"Go with Karina. I understand how you feel, Danis."

Amara's words made Danis dumbfounded upon hearing it. The man stared at Amara. His mouth was slightly open, but he was unable to speak.

"Go away... I'm okay," continued Amara. He even held Danis' hand to make sure that what he said was true.

Danis took a deep breath and swallowed her own saliva with great difficulty. His feelings are so uncaring. He was at the intersection of feelings for two women.

Danis' body spontaneously stood up. Suddenly his legs crackled on their own, not wanting him but the heart that commanded him. "I'm sorry, Ara" he said regretfully.

"Send my regards to Karina. May he recover soon" said Amara. He said with a gentle smile. There is no anger or jealousy. Amara really feels fine.

"A-I will tell you. Call me if you need anything" Danis said before leaving.

"Yes... Don't worry about me. Let's go quickly ! You must want to see Karina right away ?"

Again Danis nods her head in response. What Amara said is true. Danis was already looking forward to seeing Karina. "I'm leaving" said Danis. Even the man did not kiss Amara on the forehead for a moment before leaving.

Ever since they met again a month ago, the two had never once kissed each other on the lips. Danis will kiss Amara's forehead for a moment as a sign of unfortunately.

Amara stared at Danis' departure with a relieved feeling. Relieved because then Danis will be aware of her own feelings. Amara believes Danis's departure to the hospital must be due to her love for Karina.

Amara couldn't blame Danis because her feelings changed for her. It was Karina who faithfully accompanied Danis in the man's difficult time. When Danis was desperate and wanted to take her own life, Karina strengthened her. Even Karina also took care of Danis after the terrible incident.

Without Danis realizing it, she needs Karina by her side. Not just as a friend, but as the woman he loves.

Karina is also a good woman. Although Amara is convinced that Karina also has more feelings for Danis, but the girl does not act as annoying as a couple's grabbing woman. Karina is kind to Amara, and she can always keep her distance from Danis. Even Karina is very supportive of Danis and Amara's relationship by helping both of them prepare everything needed for the marriage.

"Danis is very lucky," muttered Amara quietly. Lucky to realize his feelings before it's too late. Imagine what would happen if Danis realized it after she and Amara got married ? Surely that man will be tormented. And so will Amara, he will suffer because Amara married Danis just to pay his promise.

Amara's heart was already attached to Gio. One month apart, it doesn't make Amara forget it. Which happens the opposite. Amara often felt a longing for the man with greatness. As he stared at the photo of Evan, then the shadow of Gio's face was also there.

The shadow of a perfect farewell with Gio, also always haunts Amara. It was still clear in her memory how Gio touched her gently and full of love.

"Oh my God" said Amara as she remembered something. Amara quickly opened the calendar menu on her phone, and she closed her mouth with both hands.

***

Amara waited anxiously while holding a steak-shaped object. Last night, Amara found out that she was late for the moon. Amara has a fixed cycle every month, even sometimes the monthly guests come faster and never late.

When first pregnant Evan Amara also get the same symptoms. Often feel weak and dizzy. Makes Amara wonder if she is pregnant with Gio's child again ?

***

"Can you see an object that's the size of a red bean?" ask a doctor while showing the picture in question on the monitor screen.

Amara nodded her head, "yes I can see it," replied Amara with a thumping chest.

"That's the pregnancy sac. Congratulations, you'll be a mother."

"I've become a mother. This is my second child" said Amara in fluent English. Amara stared at the screen full of happiness.

"Evan will have a sister. Gio... I'm pregnant with your second child, our second child" muttered Amara, wiping the wet end of her eyes. Amara's feelings were mixed. Unbelieving and also happy Amara felt simultaneously at this time.

Yep... For her second pregnancy, Amara felt a great happiness. Not anything Amara has felt great love for the child she contains.

"Give me the best vitamins" Amara said.

"Do you have health insurance?" Ask the doctor. The two are currently sitting facing each other.

"No, I will pay it in cash" Amara replied without hesitation.

Amara asks Gio for a high fee to breastfeed Evan. In the past, Amara did it so that Gio would hate him. But apparently God has a plan behind it all.

The money that Gio gave first, Amara will use to finance his needs and also his second child who is still in the womb. "I used your money for the needs of our son, Gio," Amara said in his heart. He stroked his still flat stomach affectionately. And Amara was happy because indirectly, Gio took care of the child through the money he gave.

"Look Gio... Even though we have separated, but you are still a part of me." said Amara while rubbing her wet eyes.

***

"Ara, where are you from ?" Ask Danis. The man was standing at the door of Amara's apartment. It was late in the afternoon but Danis had already come home from work. He also carries two paper bags in his hand, Amara is convinced that Danis will go to the hospital to accompany Karina.

"I just got home from the doctor. I wanted to see Karina, but I was tired."

"I'm sorry that I can't accompany you" Danis said regretfully.

"Last night I was staying at the hospital, accompanying Karina. Then go home in the morning just to change clothes. I'm sorry I just got to see her again now" Danis continued. Her sad face showed such a stern sense of guilt.

"Are you going to the hospital again ?"

"i-yes... I hope you're not angry.a-I..,"

"We'd better go in first, there's something I want to talk about" Amara said.

***

"Doctor's word... I'm not sick, but I'm pregnant.

"Huh ?" Danis didn't believe it. The two are currently sitting opposite each other in Amara's apartment.

"Yes... You didn't hear me wrong. I'm pregnant and this is Gio's son" Amara explained. While Danis just fell silent glued to look at Amara.

"I... I will keep this baby, because I love him so much. I'm sorry for telling you the truth. I don't want to cover up my pregnancy. I don't want to deceive you" explained Amara.

"But how can it ? When ? Did Gio hurt you again?" Danis asked worriedly.

"No, Gio never hurt me again. We do it consciously and..,"

"And because of love ?" Cut Danis.

Amara took a deep breath and nodded her head slowly in response.

To be continued ' ''________continued

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