Although Not Perfect
He has returned

Why can I see this happening ? is this the end of my life...

"Amel please hold on. Don't leave me! We're almost there, you have to be strong." mas Reza's voice was stamped with tears flowing in both corners of his eyes, while hugging my body that has started to limp helplessly.

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Arriving at the hospital I could still see everything, from entering IGD mas Reza in blood-filled clothes carrying me and putting my helpless body in the gurney.

I felt drifting following my body that had gone through medical action with various tools attached to my body. I even had to have surgery because my injuries were deep enough to cause me to lose a lot of blood.

I don't know how long I've been in that room.

As if I could see through the operation, a half-frustrated man looked very messy, his eyes staring blankly.

Mas Reza, if we match only up here, I hope you find my replacement soon.

A few hours later came my dear mother still with her sobs and her anxious face made me pity.

Mom came with Mama Nina and Tasya, they one by one gave a hug to Reza who looked fragile.

"I did it again Ma.." said mas Reza with a face that held back feelings.

Mama Nina sat next to Reza's mas while rubbing her son's arm, hoping to calm his heart.

"I'm bringing my wife and my future son in danger just like Vina was.." The fragile voice sounded sad.

"You mean...Amel is pregnant..?"mama Nina asked who made mom and Tasya look over

Mas Reza nodded and gulped with difficulty.

Instantly the mother closed her trembling lips to hold back the sobs that had accompanied her.

"Oh God...."Mama Nina was also shaken to hear that.

"God is punishing me Ma, I must have committed a great sin until I had to experience this incident again." said Reza again.

"No Reza .. This is the test of all of us, you must still think well of God, after all Mama is sure, this is not the same as before. You know for yourself, right? Amel is a strong woman, she does not give up easily. She must have survived, we are all sure of that, you also have to be sure.keep praying Reza.." said Mama Nina embrace her son trying to give strength to the fragile man.

Mas reza turned his head and looked at Mama Nina with her tired eyes, then nodded and pulled the corner of her lips.

"Now clean yourself, this is Mama bringing you a change of clothes..."Mama Nina handed the paper bag to Reza.

It was late in the evening when doctors came out of the operating room to see people waiting for news of my condition. I can still see all those who are anxious hoping to get some good news from the doctor.

"How's my wife doing, Doc?" with anxiety Reza immediately approached the doctor.

"Then ..what about the content..?"

"We've given him a booster, and if his mother's condition has improved, I'm sure your children can survive..."

"Thank you doc, can I see it.."

"Please.your wife has been taken to the ICU, please visit her in turn..."

"Nice doc..."

The doctor passed by leaving them slightly relieved, despite only hearing the doctor's explanation.

"Reza...tadi the doctor said your children what...?"ask my mom to be curious.

"Yes ma'am, may the mother's twin granddaughter always be in good condition.." mas Reza looked at meu to the mother, I think she was afraid if the mother did not have time to see her twin grandchildren.

Mother again cried to hear it, between sad and happy mixed into one.

I was still floating following my body that was being pushed towards the ICU room. I saw my pale face, the oxygen helped my breathing and the hose my nose put in brought nutrients for me and my children.

My eyes looked around me, I was not alone there were some people who fared the same fate as me, could only wait beside his body waiting for an almighty decision, he said, whether to return to his body or have to leave this world for good. Just waiting for the fate that He has planned.

Clad in sterile clothes, Reza came to my bed. His face was not too tangled as before, but his swollen eyes that were crying for too long were clearly visible.

"Amel..hopefully you can hear me.." Her tears melted again through the corner of her eyes even without a puff.

"Seeing you hurt like that, immediately the whole shadow when with you was seen in front of my eyes, making me have returned completely, even I also remember when telling you not to be close to danger, just call security, call security, and it turns out that you are indeed wayward."he held back laughter and sobs together.

"I really love you, hang on, forgive me for ignoring you, let me make you happy.give me that chance.." again she wiped her tears, the other hand held my hand.

“Three years ago, I was also in the same position as this, accompanying Vina who had conceived my son in a coma. Unfortunately, he never woke up again. I tried to be sincere because he had long suffered from his pain. I promised to love her all the time, which is why I can't tell you. I'm sorry that I'm selfish like this, but even without that, I want you to feel how much my love for you outweighs my own life..."

"If you can, let me take your place, but I must be sure you are my strong wife, you must wake up, continue to live with me, and raise our children, I regret, she said, you feel this kind of pain because of me... Forgive your stupid husband, Mel! Please punish me in another way, not by seeing you helpless like this, I'm really devastated to see you covered in blood almost dying like that...."

Mas Reza kept talking to me, even I had never heard his words long and wide. Usually I am the one who always babbles while he only says just that...

Mas Reza invited me to chat as if I was listening to him, wanting me to tease, tease and argue with him like when we were having a non-essential conversation.

But this time I saw the earnestness in his words, I should also apologize to him, why should he dispute the expression of love while he treated me like a queen in his heart.

Will the Almighty give me the opportunity to answer all the expressions that the man who has brought me into the bonds of marriage has spoken?

O Allah, I surrender to the destiny You have set, but please give peace of mind to the man. Has not all that he has done been according to Your teaching, O God...

Give Reza happiness with or without me....