Although Not Perfect
Baby twins

The doctor rubbed the gel over my stomach and looked for life by twirling it around my stomach.

"Look at these points, they're your children.."the doctor smiled as if he was happy.

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"They? Is...." I said softly trying to digest the words of Doctor Aisyah.

"Yes, ma'am, you're pregnant with twins." The answer left me speechless.

My tears flowed in the corner of my eyes. My heart was pounding, anxiety was engulfing my heart. I should have been happy right away, but my heart became painful to remember if their father had not admitted it.

I have to start reimagining these feelings, being a strong mother to them, no matter what happens I will protect her.

With or without a father, they will be my favorite children, a top priority in my life.

"Are they both healthy, Doc?"I asked Dr. Aisyah.

" Alhamdulillah both healthy and size according to his age.for the first semester, you should not be too forced to do strenuous activities, because the blood pressure of the mistress is slightly above normal, I recommend maintaining a balance of birth and mind with yoga yoga." said the doctor, allowing me to sit back.

" Thank you doc.." I got up from the checkpoint.

After I finished the examination and redeemed the vitamins at the pharmacy that I had to take every day, we immediately went back to the cafe.

When we reached the cafe, Lucy was feeding Feli on the swing. Seeing his papa coming, Feli immediately ran to greet him.

"Papa..!" the little girl with an adorable smile raised both her hands asking in her papa sling.

"Hi sweety.don't run around like that, you can fall my love.." - Welcome Richard while holding and kissing his daughter.

My smile expands to see the scene, will Reza will also welcome his children with pleasure or even ignore it.

I should avoid negative thoughts that always ruin my mood.

Lucy came up to us and smiled at me.

"How is everything okay?"he said while wiping my arm.

"Sure, we are fine and very healthy, thank you.." I smiled happily as I rubbed my stomach.

"She will give birth to twins." said Richard, embracing his wife.

"Really's? Very happy to hear it..I hope their father finds out soon." replied Lucy with a sparkling face.

"I hope so, Lucy..they are only ten weeks old, their father will know when my stomach gets bigger." I try to be neutral with this situation.

"Don't be sad Amel, just think about fun things..do you want to eat ice cream?" Lucy tried to cheer me up.

"Of course.." I'm happy to follow Richard and his wife into the cafe .

That day, because the visitors began to be crowded before lunch, I put again ice cream served into the freezer I took over the cashier so that there was additional energy for the waitress.

Usually I also help as a waitress, or other work that looks overwhelmed but after knowing this pregnancy, Richard did not let me be too tired.

Moments later an employee approached me at the cashier's desk.

"Mrs, Mr. Reza is coming... Let me take care of the cashier, after all some visitors have begun to decrease .. "said one of the cafe employees.

I nodded and looked at the wall clock that showed at half-time. Tumben he's coming at this hour? my inner.

I walked up to Reza's desk in the office and saw him sitting down and checking his financial records. He looked at me when I opened the door.

“Did Reza have lunch?" tanyaku later.

"Yet..."

A little while later I came back with food and Richard helped me because my hands didn't carry enough.

"Hi Reza, how many days haven't you been here, haven't you missed me?"richard said with his bullish accent.

"Of course I miss your latte coffee a lot.."so Reza chuckled. I finally saw that smile again.

"Good, you're just missing my coffee, because Lucy's getting jealous of seeing me always with you ... " Any Richard smiled and left us.

I put all the food in front of him. He just noticed and after he finished he looked at me questioningly.

"Why?"say him.

"Why do I eat this much?"

"Isn't home also usually available like this?"

"Sit down and eat with me."still with his flat attitude.

I slide the chair and sit facing him. My heart flowered as if we were lovers who were ngedate in a cafe.

Finally he took me out to eat together, after the accident that hit him almost a month ago.

Next , I hope he brings me another one too...Of course I miss her warm attitude as before, especially during this pregnancy makes me always want to be near her.

But I guess I have to wake up from my dream, because what I'm facing now is a foreign man with a very cold attitude towards me.

“Do you hate me…?"he said while enjoying our lunch.

“Why should you hate?"sahutku flat.

"Because I don't remember our marriage at all..."

"It's a little annoying, but I'm getting used to it." I chewed my food greedily, actually, I had eaten a heavy snack because I had to keep watch at the cashier and lunch time customers came to change and did not give me the opportunity to eat calmly.

We returned silent.

"Why did Reza take me to eat, don't you usually feel uncomfortable eating with me.."

"Is that what you're thinking?"

"With that sadistic look of yours, it certainly makes me have to step away from you..."

He smiled stifledly.

" Why even laugh anyway, lest mas Reza do not feel like that huh?.."guyukutu regret.

"I'm still confused, don't I just consider you Tasya's friend but when you avoid me it feels weird, I also feel used to cooking for two” people he said seriously.

I rolled my eyeballs and let out a breath of air. Fuck up!! We are indeed too close, you just do not want to admit it, maybe you deliberately do not try to remember it.

“Of course, maybe you cooked a lot for Rijah's mom.."I held back a laugh when saying it.

”Had I still believed slowly you would remember me again." I said again.

He saw me take a capjay, grilled fish and a parchment and put it on my side. I stopped my movements when I realized Reza was watching me.

"Why see me like that? Am I starting to make you uncomfortable again? All right I'll move in the corner, enjoy your lunch mas.." said I while lifting my plate.

"Wait.stay here. I'm just still trying to remember what portion of your meal is this big?"he said while looking at me who was still busy chewing my food.

Our eyes meet, I see his sad gaze but contains a thousand questions that have not been able to enter his logic.