The Pain of Marriage
EPISODE 24 Fighting out of the shackles of the heart

I looked at Mr. Aceng and smiled..

"So calm, I know my position now, I know Wildan is no longer mine, I promise you Vienna, too, Mila and myself are going to let go and get out of Wildan's world..

I'm just not used to it without him, brother, I need time, from one year ago Wildan always call, message and chat me at any time brother, every day 100 chat sent, every 1/2 Hours once he called me late at night not infrequently only his sleeping voice that I heard because it did not turn off his salary, we always walk everywhere aja sak.. But now I have to get used to it without it all, honestly, brother I can't, I'm even like a stressed person if this phone doesn't go off in ten minutes because all this time he's always been on me once every two minutes....

I know brother, from now on I have to be without it all, I also do not intend to separate Wildan with Sienna, not a bit of heart, I still have the pride to be called the actor.....

Because even though I was chosen by Wildan's heart, but in fact Sienn is the official one for him.. I've been splintering them, brother, please give me some time to move on"

"Thank God, when you saw the way your heart was broken, my sister was afraid of a lovely girl who knew a good and innocent child so she became violent and did everything she could to change your personality..."

" Haha...... Brother just calm Lindah will not turn into a tiger let alone a lioness, I still have a conscience and self-esteem sis..."

"Yes, I trust you, brother is calm now, let's take you home"....

"Lin please reflect on the words of the brothers all earlier yes, you do not get too late in feeling makes you always sad and cry, try to find busy, just try to find busy, uh you used to love writing stories if you busy yourself again in front of the computer.."

"Yes, sister, will Lindah try...."

After coming home from the garden, my heart was a little calm, not too tangled anymore, it seemed to exchange ideas with Mr. Aceng slightly opened my heart and mind....

Coming home from the park I remember Wildan back, Aceng's brother right I have to move on, Wildan is not mine anymore, no I don't want any more tears falling today, I have to forget Wildan, Wildan, but how is it....!???!?! I looked around my room, almost all my room contents were gifts from Wildan, I stood up and immediately took everything I could remember about him from the doll, the bracelet until my clothes stacked all so one then took it to the back of the house and burned it, has finished all my eyes turned on the phone that I was holding, yes this phone is also given Wildan, Wildan, should I throw this phone away.....?!?! Then what if there is something important, I open the sim card to release it and then throw it so far...

I hope this way I won't be able to communicate with him again....

An hour went by, I was playing my phone in my hand, was Wildan calling me, lest Wildan was worried my number was off, or now Wildan was doing some weird thing, what if Wildan refused to perform all the rituals and customs of the wedding tradition, what if Wildan left the event as the threat used to be..... I was sweating coldly guessing, thinking of all that might not have happened, I ran quickly towards my simcard throwing ruffled the ground crying, crying, after a few minutes of finally meeting I immediately put it back into my phone and immediately check it turned out to be true there was a chat from Wildan

"It's a shame tonight I'm not staying home, staying at my house...."

Lovely dropped himself on the floor while cursing himself, why think too far....

One week passed without any communication with Wildan, It still makes me uneasy indeed but at least it has been a great progress for me, I remember my old stupidity and smile how crazy love, love, love, it can destroy us to be beggars..

Somehow my ignorant nature relapsed, wanting to feel like I tested my own feelings by contacting Wildan whether I would get carried back or have managed to move on..

I type a message

"Hi Wildan how are you.."

A few minutes later there was a reply from Wildan...

"I'm sorry I've had too many sins, I don't want to add any more"

What's so all this time Wildan thought I was a sin for him????

Damn it as low as I was for him..

From this moment on I'll swear I won't call you, never..

I regretted playing around earlier, instead of me being able to arrange my heart even hurt the second time.. I have a mobile phone in my hand, this is all because of this phone, I have to forget it from now on, period, I throw Wildan's cell phone as far as possible....

"Wildaaan I should forget you"

"I hate you

"Wildam....

you know a hair on your head like a slice of grief in the arms of my world...."

Five months on, I've been living a normal life as usual, Wildan's last words are really able to change my feelings from love to hate..

I was engrossed in front of my laptop when my phone gave me a message, I opened it while my eyes were fixed on the laptop screen..

I wrote for a moment the message, did I not see wrong, I squinted my eyes from Wildan

"Beautiful sorry for me all this time, please forgive me..."