The Pain of Marriage
EPISODE 22 Heart-setting
I looked at Wildan with sadness, Wil if I could choose I would like to stay together, I really wish I was your soul mate but the truth says otherwise, if you don't want to lose me even more I'm afraid, even I can't imagine one day without you how I would live my day without you, no I I can't be weak in front of Wildan I have to pretend to be strong....
"Darling I please help me get through this, only you can accompany me through all the trials of my life, please help me through it...." wildan said, clutching his hand tightly with tears hanging from the eyes, Lindah who saw such a scene could not resist all Wildan's words, although the thought rejected him but his heart again and again always forced him to nod, somehow I was always weak in front of this man I loved so much....
Wildan kissed Lindah's hands and forehead after seeing her nod in agreement, thanking her and then saying goodbye after Wildan's departure, Lindah berated herself who could not even determine her own attitude, lamenting all the foolishness he was so aware of, his choice today had led him to a very deep abyss of regret....
I wrote the clock in my hand at 17:30, I rushed to take a shower, praying not to forget dinner with my mother and sister Vienna....
"Darling you should, why do you pay attention these few days you are more quiet than usual, lock yourself in the room, tuh also your eyes are always moist, is your child a problem???" Ask my mother gently.
It turns out that my mother noticed my strange behavior all along.
" Aahhh, ordinary mom really, Lindah not why-why, just lazy so Lovely watching soap opera Bu sampe baper go cry so gini deh" Sahutku smiled showed my eyes as puffy, my eyes are so beautiful, sorry Lindah Bu had to lie, I don't want you to worry.
She smiled and continued eating.
After I finished eating everything I said to my mother in my room, sister Vienna sat next to me while looking at me anxiously
"Lin does anyone want you to tell me the same brother...."
"No brother, Lindah is okay.." I said lowered my head.
"You're sure, maybe brother can't help you but at least brother can ease your burden, brother can't bear to see you like this...." Said Viennese with a raucous voice
I looked at Mr. Vienna, yes Mr. Vienna was right maybe by telling a story can make me breathe
"Sister, Wildan was betrothed....?!?!"
"Haah, then how's Wildan?!?!" Ask Mr. Lindah to investigate
"He refused even though his family was against him but Wildan asked me to stay with him, what do you think....?!"
"uuuhh, Lin can big brother give you advice.....??!!" mr. Viennese took a deep breath
"Please brother...."
"You remember mom and dad's accident....?!?!!"
"Yes remember brother then what does this have to do with this problem....?!" I said I don't understand where Vienna's talk is going
"Actually when our father was in an accident and mother had to operate but at that time the father's business was bankrupt and did not have a penny of income, the father was forced to ask his father Wildan for help loan money with the guarantee of our home, Wildan, let's just think of it as a sign of our gratitude to the Wildan family.." said brother Vienna his voice was stifled to hold the heart must say it all, all, but this is the only way that his sister is not more devastated to feel the pain of marriage, he realized they could not unite
"Sister I mean, I have to repay at the expense of my feelings brother, is there no other way?!?!" I said with a voice almost disappeared, what is the price of a sign of gratitude....
"Sorry big brother Lin, I hope you can give up for the common good, I'm sure if you are a match God will unite you somehow but if not, then if not, God must have provided the best soul mate for you, sleep is not too much think you are still a child, sometimes life does not have to always be in line with our desires dear...." said Mr. Vienna, stroking my long hair
I could only nod softly without having to answer what, the words of the Viennese man like a sculpture in my heart ached but did not bleed, as expensive as a sign of remuneration and then what about Wildan, what is the sign of gratitude by having to bring it assurance.... Lovely pulling his own hair felt a headache that was so painful, it felt like his head was about to break....
Lindah woke up early with a grim face, all night she could not sleep considering all the conversations with sister Vienna, I know someday will definitely lose Wildan but must be this fast right?!?! from the bottom of his heart I really did not want to, and could not afford to lose it, even though in a dream, I went out of the room trying to find an atmosphere that could make me breathe a little, aaghh where I go but this thought will still be Wildan.not next week even a year of their relationship, do I enjoy the rest of this togetherness with Wildan, making good memories while learning to live without it even though I knew I might not be able to lose it....
God please help me....
Lindah nodded in agreement with her heart to enjoy the rest of their togetherness, escorting Wildan to his wedding after which he would retreat in order by bringing all of Wildan's memories....
Linda swiped her phone as the chat tone came in from Wildan
"Dear try to get out for a while, I have a surprise for you...."
I smiled lightly stepping on my feet, I should think about our last university, then later.... I threw my body on the sofa while smiling at what surprise gift Wildan would give me, my smile on my lips had not disappeared as my eyes were fixed on an object shaped like a blue-covered wedding invitation, me
standing up to grab a blue-covered card with a simple but luxurious motif, I read the name on the gold-inked invitation card as soon as my hand trembled, my mouth locked, throat choked, and so on, it's like the heart stopped beating reading the name "Wildan & Sienna"
Wildan, this is Wildan's invitation, so they got married this soon, I tried to wipe away the cold sweat on my temple, and wiped away the tears that started to fall and continued reading it "week, April 16..." this is our date and day of university, this is the surprise that Wildan meant......
I stared at the card in my hand, unable to continue reading it, my eyes blurred with tears.... I didn't even know what to do, the paper in my hand fell down when a greeting surprised me, I turned my gaze to the source of the voice, Wildan standing at the door smiling sweetly with a gift in his hand, my eyes were staring at him even I didn't know if I should be happy or crying any louder at Wildan....
Wildan came up to me handing me a gift and whispering a word of surprise, I tried to smile as my feet reached for the invitation and shifted it trying to hide the invitation but unlucky Wildan hunted to see it and withdrew the invitation
"This, where did you get....??" he asked with a trembling voice
"I I saw her on that desk." I said, biting my lips and holding back tears.
"Houh shit, I told you to be a papa so that there's not a single invitation to enter this house, but how could this be possible..."
I raised my head in shock at Wildan's words, my emotions and heart breaking fused together and I could no longer manage the emotions
"So you mean you know we're getting married next Sunday, on our anniversary, then why are you asking me to stay, you purposely hid all this?!?! today I really feel like the dumbest woman in the world
"Not that, dear...."
"Then what, you think I'm a runaway or a shelter, I don't think you're really petty, you're a loser, you're a planless bloke you know?!?!" I said blindly
Wildan threw down the chair in front of him and shouted
"You consider yourself a victim, then you consider me what..... Do you never think how I feel myself....?!!!!" wildan replied in a high voice
Linda was speechless, frightened to see Wildan's attitude like a stranger
Wildan stared at Lindah sharply
"You think I'm a loser, right, you're right, I'm a loser guy who can't even fight for his girl.... I'm a wishy-washy guy yeah I'm the saddest guy who can't even make his choice, yeah I'm a guy who can't choose his own love hu hu hu, I'm a useless guy, I'm a useless guy and I don't have any self-esteem.I don't deserve you" Wildan said, dropping his body on a couch in tears....
Lindah was stunned and fell beside Wildan did not know what to answer only her tears were getting louder