Pain(Tings)
Chapter 30: Life

After the funeral and the people dressed in all black who came and went to each other began to decrease, the core members of the family still stayed in place. They mourn the mound of land that has just become the separation between the underworld and the world of life. The sound of crying had begun to subside, but never made him able to smile cheerfully again. The rain starts to arrive. Some people began to seek shelter, leading their other families away from the rain.

“Come, Ta. Don't get sick here. He will surely cry if you see you are rich gini,” persuade April who helped make Sita stand with fatigue.

Sita just kept quiet. He refused to move even a little. Her tears have dried up. Contrary to the reverse with Trella who was still crying thrashing before finally being carried forcibly by her father.

“Hei, Ta! See Auntie, here.”

The pat on Sita's cheek made her turn her head with a forced look. Already he made sure that his face would not be much different as pitiful as Trella earlier.

“Sita, hey!”

April kept making Sita look at him. Inviting him to speak became his first mission to realize Sita, that everything will continue to go. Even if we have to lose someone we love.

After April forced Sita to just talk and step towards a place to shelter. Sita only looked like a mannequin that could not speak. Even if she did not feel her warm breath, April must have expected Sita to die standing up.

With great force, April leaves Sita with her other family. Because he also had to make sure the other nephew.

It is far from okay. Trella that April saw, actually looks more expressive in channeling her sadness. Unlike Sita who just grieves in silence.

“You want to go straight back?” ask April to Adira.

Trella's mother only agreed to her proposal without much rejection. Surely, seeing his only child mourning, leaving also deep sorrow for him.

“OK, let me bring your car here and you can go straight home. How?” Seeing Adira re-breeding her offer, April becomes even more sad. His family had already hoped for a lot of Widan.

Adira gives April their car keys which are greeted with a wry smile April sees Adira who is still shedding tears.

...•••...

Sita was getting used to the silence and darkness. A lot of things he went through with crying. Confinement or taking a leave of absence is something he can do to make his head normal again. It feels like it just broke.

Gradually, because he did not want to see Pratista and Bima worried about him, Sita returned to his usual activities at his home. There's not much to do. Just painting and doing other human activities such as breathing. Every now and then, Sita also visits the gallery of paintings that Widan left behind for her.

“Next we want to go to Non Ella's house, right, Non?” ask Edi who is the driver who is currently driving her to Trella's house.

“Iya, Sir. Continue to Ella's home aja.”

Mr. Edi who saw Sita back silent, could not do much. In addition to ensuring that their trip did not get any danger, Sita's family had also entrusted Sita to him when he was about to go out of the house.

If it had been a week after Sita and Widan had been adrift by a very long distance. Secretly longing. In fact, after the man's departure, he still remembered and was willing to sacrifice for his happiness. Sita can only visit her grave once a week. At least this is a good ration, given by his parents.

Sita will also definitely lose control of herself if more often than not visit the final resting place of Widan.

...•••...

“Siang, Om, Aunt,” greet Sita while crucifying them.

The faint basin that looks black and the thin cheeks of Aunt Adira further strengthens her assumption that they also experience serious suffering. Especially considering the marriage that will last a little longer, making them must be sad for long.

“Papa your Mama how, Sit?” ask Adira who has hosted Sita near the family room.

“Good, Tan. They had the condition of Auntie the same Om, but they like rarely at home.”

Adira laughed a little. The faint wrinkle that was on his forehead slowly began to show. “They were ... still not changed,” Adira said in a soft voice. But clearly Sita can hear it.

The atmosphere of Trella's house looked so quiet. Unlike usual that is always crowded by Trella activities in this house. Losing someone can change everything.

They talked for quite a while. Until Adira's husband resigned because of work problems he had. Now in the family room, only Sita and Adira left.

The long breath that Sita heard came from Adira who was staring straight at the frame that featured a complete portrait of her family.

“Yesterday the Agler family came here. They were arguing about the marriage being void,” Adira said hearing a trembling voice. “While it should have been, our family visited them. But, Trella ... she can no longer be invited there.”

That statement shook Sita's consciousness. He gently stroked the hand of Adira who had been holding it, as if looking for strength from Sita.

“Trella, Sita .. she ...,” Adira's words continue to be cut because of the sound of her crying. “In that grief, Ella goes  ... Ta, he went to Auntie,” later.

Sita's stunned. The shadow of Trella who acted foolishly by taking her own life forcefully, made an uneasy turmoil on her stomach. “Tante... Ella....,” Sita's breath as if snatched. Moreover, Adira shook her head. It shows that Trella is not in good shape.

“Dia... mutusin to go to Canada,” Adira explained that makes Sita finally able to breathe a sigh of relief.

At least his cousin did nothing crazy to hurt his family anymore.

“But, Tan, why did she go there?”

Again Adira shook her head. “Tante is also less sure. But in the letter that stayed yesterday malem, he said he wanted to continue studying there.”

Sita rested her hands on Adira who was still holding her. “Tante just calm, if later I've been licensed with Mama, I will definitely go there for Jengukin Trella,” promise Sita make Adira smile happy. She hugged Sita like she was hugging her own child.

“Tante sure, Ella also definitely misses us all here.”

Sita believed Adira's words. Because as far as Sita knows, Trella is also a typical person who always loves his family.

Sita's phone rang, instantly making her turn. Hideki's name on the part of his phone that lights up makes Sita's forehead wrinkled. Given the disappearance of Hideki along with Widan, raises the perception that the man will not come back. Especially after this kind of chaos.

Finally Sita chose to pick up the phone on the fourth ring. He was hesitant about his own decision. But after hearing Hideki's voice, the doubts began to diminish. Along with a strange feeling that slipped in the recesses of his heart.

“Ta, where are you?”