Pain(Tings)
Chapter 13: Lose

Sita lay on her mattress while making a list of activities that she will do for a week. This habit has been applied by his father since Sita was a child. Sita glanced at her vibrating phone, there were short messages from social media and also from the many advertisements of goods by various online shop media. Sita ignored the ad notification and focused her attention on one message from Hideki.

Hideki

Want to visit Tokyo Disney Sea? Maybe that place will make you calmer.

Sita's smile was engraved even at a glance. While he was perplexed about the different state of Widan thousands of kilometers with him, Sita sighed. He typed a short message on Widan and hoped that his best friend would tell him soon. Even if it is just a short message.

^^^Sita^^

^^^Wi? Where aja? ^^^

^^^Gue was anxious and stopped worrying me, Dan (^^^

Sita got out of her bed. He walked towards the closet and was surprised as he looked towards the mirror - which became one with his wardrobe - his hair was a mess. Not to mention his haggard looking eyes and dull face. Sita pouted at her reflection which looked creepy.

"If only in Indonesia there is a casting for a horror film, rich I can pass without selection when they see the state of my face like this." Sita who was furious, immediately messed up her long hair. Her hair is so tangled from before. Lazily, Sita grabbed a device that was still crowded with notifications.

^^^Sita^^

^^Eki, chotto matte kudasai(1). ^^^

After clicking on the send item, a reply from Hideki came shortly afterwards.

Hideki

Mochiron(2), just relax.

Sita just read it without any intention of retaliating.

"Summer must be enjoyed, not to be sad!" he said, encouraging myself.

Just as Sita was about to go to the bathroom, a cry from her grandmother made Sita undo her intention to take a bath.

After solving the problem with the grandmother, Sita chose to soak herself in warm water. His grandmother's words came back to his mind.

"Tata-chan, it's grown up now. It's been great and can understand family issues, right?"

Sita who hesitated with the intention of her grandmother just nodded politely. At least, he did not have any prejudice with what his grandmother intended.

Her grandmother smiled at Sita while hugging her all of a sudden. In the coughing voice that Sita heard, her grandmother spoke softly with hope to her.

"Grandma hope, you will grow up to be a strong girl. Not only have physical beauty, but the heart and grandmother hope you can continue our family business, huh?"

At that time Sita was just unmoved not knowing the direction. He was silent, like a sword slashing his heart. The words or can be referred to as the plea, indirectly became an ultimatum to him. To prevent Sita from achieving happiness through her dreams.

He hoped that the strange thunder that continued to stifle in his chest, could be reduced along with the roaring cry that Sita could not weep anymore. For a moment, Sita again missed the figure of Adya beside her. Her brother was the most important person for Sita's life. Even after his absence in the world, Sita still thinks that Adya just sleeps in a pile of soil. Not really gone like many people told him.

That tightness was on his chest. Even to let out her tears, Sita did not have the ability to do that. It was as if there was something stuck in his heart and made Sita unable to cry despite the tightness in his chest continuously gnawing at his soul.

"Because it's those memories that keep us from crying. The memories make us realize more and more that we are the ones who are the most sad when we know the memories can not be repeated."

Sita closed her eyes. In the shower, Sita re-imagined the memories that occurred between her and Adya to make her smile wryly.

...•••...

In accordance with his promise with Hideki, now they are in front of an aquatic park that makes it a perfect place to visit during the summer. Many people refer to the Tokyo Disney Sea as "The World's Best Theme Park".

The new Sita really felt herself as if walking around the city of Agrabah. There is also an entire area dedicated to Aladdin called "The Arabian Coast". It features many Disney water-themed films such as The Little Mermaid, Finding Nemo, and 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea, as well as several remastered films, such as The Tower of Terror.

Hideki takes Sita around the Disney Sea. Not only enjoying many rides, Sita can also see the existence of very detailed park accommodation, such as the Miracosta Hotel, which is a recreation of the Mediterranean port.

"You come here often?" ask Sita.

Hideki turned to Sita and smiled faintly. "Iie, in free time. That's also if my college schedule is not crowded." At the end of his sentence, Sita could hear a soft voice. Either because Sita is too melow or because she is too carried away.

Sita's attention was diverted to the clear-looking sky of Tokyo City. His smile was perfectly engraved. If you remember the past, Sita is usually pestering Widan who invites him to hunt photos. In fact, Sita often becomes an impromptu model for the man who has become his best friend.

Sita checked her dress. Wish there was a notification from the person he was thinking about. "Suph ..." The breath that came out of his mouth felt heavy. Sita looked disappointed.

"Why?" Hideki looked at him who looked sullen.

Sita shook her head, then kept the device back on a sling bag draped over the shoulder. "We go there?" Sita points to a Mediterranean port that is crowded by foreign tourists.

Hideki breathed. He allowed Sita to dodge his feelings. Although without Sita explained, the anxious face that Sita showed was enough for Hideki to guess about what happened to Sita. Maybe his guess was immediately realized when he heard the ringing sound from Sita's phone. Upon seeing the id call, Sita immediately pranced in excitement, she ignored the many pairs of eyes that were watching. Including Hideki who was secretly watching.

"Hello, Dan?"

"Sori, Sz. It's me, Trella. Wendy ...."

Sita's heart rumbled. Cold sweat began to appear and Sita was afraid of the worst possible absence of Widan these days.

"Widan .. why?"

"Maidan ..."

The news from Trella was like an arrow stuck right in the recesses of his heart. His blood seemed to stop flowing with cold sweat pouring from his forehead. The fear that Sita had been trying to extinguish, in fact, could not make him prevent the fate that befell Wildan. Once again in her life, Sita had to face her fears with all her heart.