Pain(Tings)
Chapter 11: On the Way

Early in the morning, his father came to his room. Sita thought, his father was going to go back out of town, to meet him first before leaving. However, there was news worse than Bima who suddenly departed without telling him.

The news came this morning. When Sita was cleaning her room, there was a knock on the door. Sita saw her father standing firmly behind the door and gave her some files. "Take and pack your things immediately" said Bima.

Just now Sita asked about the existence of passports and other files that are in her grasp, Bima first interrupted her. "You have too long ago resigned your departure, Sita," he said again.

Sita took her breath. His angry convulsions gathered in his chest. Not only the anger that Sita felt at this time, but the tightness full of sadness was so strong that it made her legs feel relaxed. "Is this ... what I got, after choosing Midan, Pa?" ask Sita with a hoarse voice. He tried to refrain from crying in front of his father.

Bima nodded without caring about the feelings that Sita experienced when her father said a sentence that stuck out his feelings at that time.

"That's the consequence you get when you choose it. Didn't you, yesterday you agreed, right?"

But it doesn't have to be this fast, Pa! Inner Sita shrieks. Upset by the side of the decision taken by his father. It's always like that. Sita is not left to make her own decisions or to defend her wishes for longer. Bima always had a way that finally made Sita silenced and obey the wishes of her father.

A sense of helplessness, weakness, lack of confidence to feel that in him there is always a lack, making Sita feel the sensation of discomfort when near the person she feels her life feels perfect. Like Trella suppose.

"Papa wait downstairs."

Bima's voice sounded again and Sita blinked confused. "What about my friends?"

Sita's question stopped Bima's steps that were about to go down the stairs. Bima turned her head. His lips are smiling. "Do you have a friend who deserves to say goodbye to him?"

The sarcastic words from his father made Sita clench both hands. If only the courage was there for him, Sita was sure to shout loudly in front of her father that Sita's life was not as sad as it made her have no friends. "I ..."

Bima first called for his opinion rather than waiting for Sita to finish his sentence.

"If only you would obey Papa at that time, you would have friends. At least you have a good co-worker. An example is Trella who obeyed the request of his parents," Bima's advice.

Sita made flinch. Again Bima always carries the name Trella in the life of Sita. Is that as good as that, Trella's position here? Sometimes, Sita always felt jealous when she saw Trella surrounded by people who loved the girl. Even without the girl struggling to grab the attention of the people, they would always love Trella.

But I'm not Trella, Pa! Sita was eager to call out her opinion. But what he did was contrary to what his heart wanted.

Sita's unemployed. "Yes, Pa..." Only that sentence can Sita say to Bima who looks satisfied after listening to his words.

...•••...

Sita packed her things with a cocky feeling and also a cry that Sita could not bear anymore. Her tears flowed so hard from her eyelids. He glanced at the device that kept ringing long, signaling a phone notification from someone.

Seeing the Id call on the device, making the tightness in Sita's heart more so-so. Sita wanted to yell and apologize to the person she had already ignored her phone. But Sita couldn't. According to him, releasing without a goodbye is better than a farewell with a saying goodbye.

Relationships between them, not like relationships in general. They are only friends, but still. It's hard to be away with friends. Without being able to see his presence, Sita could not hold his hand again when Sita felt down. There is no one who can be Sita jahili every day. Sita will miss a lot of fun moments with Widan.

Sita sat on the edge of the bed and covered her face. The girl sobbed and sounded heartbreaking. The look of pity and feeling that cannot be explained makes the Widan who stands before Sita, immediately hold her tightly.

Sita. He sobbed more and more when Widan said that she was worried about Sita and met her through the balcony of Sita's room.

"Yes, I'm here" said Widan.

Not that the crying receded, precisely what Sita felt was a feeling of anxiety and fear that did not subside.

"Widan ..." whining.

Widan patiently stroked Sita's back, reporting. Sita can even feel that Widan occasionally kisses the crown of his head which makes Sita increasingly sobbing.

"Ta, don't make me worry about you crying gini," Widan said in a hoarse voice.

"Gue doesn't know what's going to happen, but plis, promise me that you'll be all right, okay?"

Sita does not know why she asked herself to be okay, even though she herself was far from being okay.

Widan let go of her embrace. He looked at Sita whose eyes were already puffy. Widan rubbed the tears Sita left in the eye pelupuk. "Om Bima is clear everything," said Widan suddenly.

Sita's eyes were wide. "Papa?"

Widan nodded. He knelt down, adjusting to Sita's height. "Yes, about everything. About you going to Japan."

"Gue won't go!"

"Sita, listen to me first," persuaded Widan.

Sita shakes. But Widan continued his sentence. "I believe you can get through this. Besides, we can still be friends, right?"

Seeing Sita who was still silent, Widan continued his words. "Focus on your life goals. I am sure, in time, your parents will be proud of Sita Parwari. I am also proud of Sita who now has the courage to make her own decision."

Sita is eager to say that, this is all still Papa's plan, I still don't dare to refute it. But Sita is no longer in power. Sita held Widan and again sobbed in the arms that Sita would later miss.

"Promise me, you will be fine and not miss my presence," pinta Sita.

Widan simply nodded without saying a word.

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