Tear Flower
THE SEASON 2 CHAPTER 30
Danieal's departure to K State became the heaviest thing Ayana ever experienced. Abandoned for an indefinable time gives a deep pain and it is heavier than being left behind by Zidan at that time.
As a sister who is very much cared for by her sister, Ayana is not willing if she has to separate long enough.
However, however, the departure of the brother is nothing but a form of concern for others.
He could not prevent or forbid it, because all of that was the responsibility of Danieal.
"Don't be sad anymore, Mas sure Danieal will be back in good shape." Zidan came hugging his wife from behind wrapping Ayana into the coat he was wearing.
"I'm sad .. because Danieal didn't say anything to me about his passing. Isn't he so cruel?" racau Ayana was disappointed while wiping away the tears.
Zidan smiled briefly and then gently kissed the top of his head. Ayana enjoys every touch the husband gives her feelings slowly improve.
The anxiety as well as the sadness that had grabbed him tightly also faded. Comfort and tranquility are obtained thanks to a life partner.
In the midst of togetherness the sound of baby whining sounds loud. Hurriedly Ayana let go of the husband's arm and ran small towards the bed.
Zidan looked back to see his wife so deftly facing the little baby.
"Uh~ Honey, you wake up well?" Ayana immediately holds a new baby a day to be their adopted child.
Zidan who was still standing by the big window looked at the two. The reddish lips curled watching the twinkle of happiness of the wife.
While his hands were in the pockets of his coat, he walked over and stood right behind the idol.
"Raima must be hungry, isn't she, honey?" he said he looked at the five-month-old baby in Ayana's arms.
"Can I just take Raima for a second? I'm gonna make some milk first." Before Zidan answered the question, Ayana had already handed Raima over to him.
After that, he got out of bed and went out of the room. Zidan cengo saw how enthusiastic Ayana was.
"So, is this the picture of us having children?" he muttered while fondling Raima.
Downstairs, Ayana tries to catch her breath that suddenly just hunts. His hands were propping up on the dining table while squeezing it hard.
Somehow he felt tight in the chest while holding Raima earlier. As the film scenes were re-enacted, footage of Zidan forcefully asking her to relate in a young pregnancy was clearly recorded.
Scene after scene continued to wander around making him close his eyes tightly with cold sweat springing up at his temples.
The face of the ayu turned pale trying to control itself. Because after all losing a child is a crushing blow that is not easily accepted.
"Astaghfirullahaladzim." Ayana continues to beristighfar trying to regulate the heartbeat that is getting too rough.
"Young lady?" Greet someone a surprise.
Ayana looked back to find one of her house assistants walking over.
"Oh, Helena? You haven't rested? It's ten o'clock at night, should all the workers be in the back, right?" ayana asked a little surprised to find one of her maids there.
Helena, the woman who used to be Bella's accomplice, shook her head. After getting an injection of funds from Ayana, he began to get familiar with her young stains.
They also do not hesitate to share sadness like a friend. Because thanks to Helena, Ayana was able to find Bella and make things work out.
Their relationship is getting better, Ayana does not consider Helena as a housekeeper at all, but an ordinary friend who always shares her joys and sorrows.
"I can't sleep, my throat is dry. It's so hot tonight, do you feel it too?" racau Helena while continuing to walk towards the place of water and then poured it into a glass.
He speaks informally when there are only two of them. If in front of Zidan, both Ayana and Helena behave like superiors and subordinates.
Zidan had no idea if the relationship of his wife and one of his maids was more than that of an errand boy and a worker.
"Em, I feel it too" she replied.
Not long after, Helena brought a glass of water and placed it on the table right in front of Ayana.
"Thank you" the painter sat down on the chair and drank water up to the toilet.
"Alhamdulillah," he murmured.
"So, what are you doing? Why is it here? Is your husband asleep? And ... Why are you so pale?" ask Helena in a row who is also sitting right opposite her.
Ayana did not immediately reply, just twirling the glass to see her reflection there. Very sad, he thought grinning softly.
A second later the smile of falsehood was present making Helena managed eyebrows do not understand.
"What's wrong? Is something bothering you? Why did your face turn sour like that? Ugly knows," said Helena ended with a joke.
This made Ayana turn back. He pursed his lips softly hearing every word come out of the mouth of the interlocutor.
"I heard you guys raised a child, does this have anything to do with that baby?" ask Helena again.
Ayana faded a smile, her face turning flat as if she was not eager to do anything.
Helena who saw again her reaction like that concluded one thing, something must have happened, she thought.
"If it's hard to go through why approve the appointment of the child? Are you suffering?" he said back who did not get a definite answer from Ayana.
For a few seconds there was silence between them. Ayana was still at home looking at herself in the reflection of the glass.
"It's not easy to think of others as your own child, but Raima is a very adorable baby. Honestly, I liked him and loved him. Who can resist her beauty? I can't either, especially she's so smart. I've loved her like a real child, me-"
"Then what's the problem? Why are you moody?" helena asked to cut her words.
Ayana raised her head until they looked at each other again. Helena gasped to watch the tears seeping behind her petals.
"W-Why?"
"You know .. we should have had a two-year-old now, but that child .. I miscarried," she explained weakly.
"W-what? Astaghfirullah, sorry I don't know Ayana. I-"
"Em, it's okay. I didn't mean to hide it or anything, but somehow it felt really heavy."
"I understand how you feel. Having a baby especially you are a mother-to-be who can be said to have just lost a child, is not easy to pass, but, it's as a complement."
"God knows what's best for you" Helena said with a sweet smile.
Now Gilian Ayana gasped, in disbelief. He was happy to hear those words slide behind Helena's thin lips.
"God, I can finally hear your advice" he said.
Helena's irises widened perfectly with a crimson hue squeezed across her white cheeks.
"I-I just .. akh already, anyway you have to be patient until you get your own child."
"Don't listen to what people say, they can only comment without knowing what it's like in your current position."
"Didn't they have their own business? Why are you busy meddling in other people's business? It's weird." Helena continued to fumble, her hands folded in front of her chest with breaths rising and falling.
Seeing her like that Ayana could not help but smile. Even a small laugh was present melting the atmosphere between the two.