Gavin - Survive On The Terrible Island
Chapter 30's

" sit here" I said, patting the floor with taro leaves next to me.

" mm.., "

marissa looked doubtful and then slowly sat down next to me

" why..? are you still angry because of what I said about the pirates who threatened you back then ? "

marissa who previously seemed a little reluctant to look at my face, when she heard me ask like that then immediately turned her head without hesitation to set her sights on me.

" so you're really angry ?? are you so upset with me now ?? "

" reason...., "marissa moved her body closer to me before she looked at me with a more serious face "give me an excuse for that. Why do you say cruel things so easily.. ??"

he thought about this ?? ..

yes it is natural, but I like the way that blatantly asks for an explanation.

" i.."

when I wanted to answer a question from Marissa, she put on a sullen face and kept looking at me up close..

" hey, can you ask a little more calmly?? "

" no.., I won't be able to calm down before you answer this big question in my mind "

" hoo.., is that a big deal ?? "

" it's so big that I can't stop thinking about it.. "

" hoo.. does that mean you keep thinking about me ?? "

" yes it is clear. "marissa said it without thinking, but after that she realized with her words then became embarrassed and began to turn her face away from me

" hen..stop putting on such a weird face. just answer my question..! "

he is putting on a strange face now..

" humm.., yeah well I'll say it now.. "

" hum. say it immediately.. "

" you are impatient..

" hey.. hurry....! "

with a stifling expression of laughter, I began to answer the question from Marissa earlier.

" actually I knew the pirate wouldn't be able to kill you "

" ooh really ?? "

" yes, maybe "

" you.maybe ?? ye..

" quiet down, I haven't finished explaining.. "

" uh ooke. humm. haaa" said.

marissa seemed to hold her breath in her chest and throw out a long breath "let's explain "

" there's a reason why they keep hunting us in this dangerous forest when if left unchecked, maybe we'll die by itself "

" umm.. "

" they even risked their lives to pursue us in this mysterious forest"

" hold on ? "

" do you not understand yet ?! "

" hummm ?? understand what..?? "

" i.e., that means they're trying to catch you alive, maybe to be sandra or something. "

" yes continue ? "

" huh ?. What do you keep ?? it's obvious they won't dare to kill you, because you're an important person to be taken prisoner alive "

" that's not what I want to hear.I've understood about the robber who won't kill me "

" humm??. if you already understand then what else do you want to hear.. "

" you're not a fool, you know what I mean" asked Marissa with a chin up expression of boredom.

" i don't understand..what's wrong with saying ?? "

" yeah..., "

" don't just say cih.., "

" what I asked from the beginning.why do you have the heart to say "you think I care about him "with a cold look when I was threatened with a sword around my neck ?? "

" humms?? "

I was stunned with a tight mouth.I couldn't say anything to answer the question from Marissa.

do I have a reason??

no. No reason will not be enough to correct my words..

" why are you that bad ? didn't you even think about how I felt when you said that sentence ?? " said Marissa with a heavy tone.His eyes began to look teary.

haa. what should I say..

I was upset with her when she lied to me that she and Doni were engaged.

but actually I have no reason to be angry because after all there is nothing to do with me about other people's relationships.

" is it because you're angry ?? "

I was surprised to look at Marissa when she asked that question..

" i'm angry?? "

" yes. are you angry that I've been engaged to doni ?? "

what does it mean that I am angry with their engagement??.

but..

why did my chest hurt when I heard from her directly, that she was engaged ??

what the hell's going on??

since when did I become this emotional ??

no. No. This is probably just my fear that has piled up to make this bitter feeling.

yeah, it's for sure..

" humms ? "

I was shocked and looked up as Marissa approached and hugged my body tightly..

" vinn.., I'm sorry. I didn't mean to lie to you about my relationship with Doni.. "

" a.. What did you say? I do not understand. I.. is not angry at all. why should I be angry ? "

" you lied to vinn.., I still clearly remember how you left me at that moment.and also your cold gaze when you said no matter to me when I was threatened by the pirates.."

" you misunderstand me how I might be angry at someone else's relationship, I have no reason to "

" umm ?? is true.. "

" yes. "

" can you explain the two things I mentioned earlier ? "

" the first is that I don't like being lied to and the second is that maybe I got too carried away with the anger that culminated in killing the pirates.You see for yourself how cruel they are ?? "

" humms ? is that so ? " ask Marissa who started taking off her arms from me and wiped the tears on her face..

"umm. certainly "I replied with a small smile to Marissa.

I don't know what I'm feeling.I might actually have other feelings for Marissa..

but.., my principle balked at having to ruin other people's relationships. I wouldn't do it..

it may..

" well now.let's just say we break even okay ? "

" breakeven ?? "

" yeah.you who lied to me and I who said bad things to you.we are the same okay ?? "

" umm..?? "

marissa was silent for a moment as if reading the expression on my face.

" yes. okay we break even "he replied with a small smile as if forced to make a smile on that beautiful face.

I could feel he was dissatisfied with the answer I made earlier.

" can we talk about something else now? " let me try to divert that awkward atmosphere, even so this is a very important question..

" umm.of course. "

" we're still going to talk about the robbers.. "

" yes. what happened to the robbers ?? "

" i was just thinking. Why do they keep hunting us ? and from what I've seen, the pirates sort of have a list of people they want to capture "

" right. they are even willing to die just for this matter. "answered marissa while holding her chin to think.

" as one of the people on that list do you have some kind of corporate enemy or rival? anything that goes against you..? "

" grh.., "