Between Love and the Mafia
50. Desperate Asa

While waiting for Bela, Bara and Alex sat in the living room in silence while enjoying a cigar. Not long after, Bela came out of her room dressed as usual, not much different from Bara's clothes.

The dress shirt and jeans he had. Because all this time Bela only had clothes that Bara had bought at that time.

"Hurry up" Ketus Bara.

Bela only according to the words of Bara but he did not know where he would be taken away by his master. His mind was still staring at Bara strangely as there was no wind and no rain he took her away.

There is a little trauma in Bela due to the Bara blow he did last time. He also kept his distance and did not want to get too close to his master, as Bela only felt safe with Alex inside the house rather than with Bara.

"Sister, I'm going first" Bela said without a sound just opening her mouth.

"OK" Alex said with the same behavior. Although Bela's parting was without a sound, but she knew what Bela said.

On the way Bela looked around again, he stared at the tree arrangement between the glass building that was so luxurious. Air mixed with the smell of vehicle smoke pollution.

It was very different from his current mind that still remembered the beautiful scenery while he was in the house of oma. Because there he can see rice fields, mountains and also green trees with lush.

While here the atmosphere is different, because this place only has trees embedded in the middle of the highway and also on the sidewalk. Most of the buildings he saw.

"Sir, are we going to visit oma? " Task Bela to Bara.

"No" Sahut bBara brief "

"Sadly, I miss oma. How is it, and does oma take the drug regularly? I want to hug him" muttered Bela giving a little picture of the oma to Bara.

Bara was astonished by the girl beside him, she was new to oma but her concern about oma health exceeded everything. It was even clear from the look in Bela's eyes that said about the longing in the oma.

Bara did not understand why the girl he hated so much loved his oma. Though Bara had often tortured his inner and physical, but the affection and attention Bela gave to oma never faded.

"Be quiet, I'm driving" Bara said to stop Bela from telling her his heart without her noticing.

Bara could not if there was someone who told her about her concern for oma. Moreover, that person is often used as revenge material by Bara.

His life seemed to be in doubt. Between hating or making peace with a sense of revenge that is still not avenged. It was as if every moment sounded a question mark without an unclear answer.

With the existence of Bara to tell Bela to be quiet, the girl was immediately silent and reluctant to talk again with her master. He was still busy calculating how many vehicles were passing by and polluting this much.

"How can the earth be healthy, if humans are selfish by building greenhouses, air police everywhere, many trees are cut down. Basic humans, because of their actions the ozone layer will thin" said Bela in his heart while looking at the towering buildings.

Only this time Bela thought that deep, even though he had lived a dozen years on earth but never thought deeply about the condition of the earth that began to deteriorate.

Maybe his brain is indeed shifted and wants to become a better human being by studying many educational sciences and practicing them in the midst of society.

As if he wanted to prove that his words this time were right to be a virtuous and exemplary student by doing serious study. What a significant change.

"For a moment, why haven't I been like this before. Although dad hates me but at least I can show that I can be smarter than Ana and El" The argument goes back inside.

He was still struggling with his own thoughts because he was unable to make use of the time when he was at his father's house first. He thought that his behavior was so wrong as to have wasted his education.

A very clever defender must give up his intelligence because it is not appreciated and choose to be the most recalcitrant student and always truant. Maybe his mind is now grown.

"Come down... "

"Come down" Again and again Bara ordered Bela to come down because they had arrived. But the girl was still struggling on her own with her thoughts.

*tinnn*

"Gosh" Sontak Bela was surprised so he shouted very loudly.

The extremely loud honking sound made Bela completely shocked. He immediately held his heart, it felt like the heart was beating so fast because it was not ready to receive such a loud sound.

Then his eyes stared intently at Bara as if to say why he sounded the horn, but in fact he could not say anything and could only be silent with anger.

"What's? " Snapped on hard.

"You... You're.. Ahh, why honk" Finally the stammering word can come out clearly also from Bela's mouth.

"You deaf? I told you to come down because we have arrived" Bara explained with an annoyed look.

Bela looked around as if they were already in a large mall parking lot. Bela got out of the car and waited for Bara to turn off the car. He was astonished to see a large mall that was so beautiful as to make Bela happy, because Bara had brought him for the second time.

There was a slight smile on the girl, her heart was pleased to see that there was a kindness from her master to take her for a walk.

He didn't expect to buy anything, but he just wanted to refresh his highly saturated brain as it had been a week in the room and lay down with an infusion tube

"Well shit, he left me" muttered Bela inwardly as she watched Bara leave her and walk alone into the mall.

Bela immediately chased after him and followed Bara from behind. Just getting into the mall, he immediately smiled happily. His gaze was pointing to every corner to make sure he found the fun back.

Bara told Bela to choose another dress like that time as a change of clothes at her home. Without saying much Bela took the clothes she wanted, not forgetting the clothes for Bara even though the previous clothes chosen by Bela were never worn.

While Bara came out briefly from the store leaving Bela. Unwittingly it turns out Bara is away from the store and Bela is still busy with her clothes.

"It seems like it's enough" muttered Bela as she headed to the cashier.

After handing over all his goods to the cashier, Bela only realized that Bara was not in the store. His eyes continued to search the surroundings apparently not finding the arrogant master he was looking for.

"Son, put the stuff here for a while, yes, because I want to find my husband" said Bela filled with faces that showed compassion.

"Alright, I will count if your husband has come" replied the cashier kindly.

"Thank you, brother"

It was fortunate that the shop was good and let Bela go for a while to look for Bara. Bela gets out of the shop and has to circle around the big mall and look for Bara.

Again he left his cell phone at home, an item that should be very important to use for emergencies like this. It's a senile young girl.

"Siall, where should I look. Whereas I forgot to bring a cell phone" he muttered to himself as he stared at all the corners to find Bara.

It felt really tired, Bela's feet continued down the big mall and she climbed down the stairs but did not find Bara either. He finally decided to rest for a while.

Suddenly his eyes accidentally saw Bara walking alone with a young woman. It looks Bara's age and the woman is adrift but Bela does not know him.

"It's a mistake that he left me alone and now walks with a woman and leaves me alone in a dress shop" He said.

Not annoyed with jealousy, but annoyed that he had already chosen a shirt and wanted to pay to the cashier but had no money at all. While Bara was alone with another woman.

For a moment Bela leaned back on the seat with a sense of uneasiness. His mind tried to cultivate the view that had just been seen directly.

And now the brain and the heart start to make arguments to him about how life is being lived just as a display and a false status.

"Indeed I never deserve to be loved by anyone" Bela said aloof in the visitor's special seat.

He leaned his head against the wall and reminded him of what he had experienced during his life. Remembering about the violence and pain that comes over.

If you remember about affection, it is very clear that his life will never be filled with affection. Bela had thought if he would get affection after getting out of his father's house, but in fact the torture was getting worse.

"God, why is there no happiness in my life God" she cried as she pulled her own hair.

His heart was tired and could only complain. Just leaning place he has no, then where else to lean and complain frankly only to his god.

Bela closed her eyes to calm herself down while recalling the fondest memories with her mother, her smile was still very loose. Now he smiles a lot of falsehood.

Fatigue in living his own life. Wanting to run but his life has been shackled and can not escape, unless there is a reckless word in it.

"Give up" said resignedly thinking about life, if he had given up.

Bela immediately went to the parking lot to get in the car. But he forgot that his car keys were in Bara and the door was locked so he couldn't get in.

Finally Bela sat on the edge of the parking lot, sat down on the floor and berselonjor. Bela chose to find a quiet place to calm her heart and lean the weak body against the concrete wall.

It was like his mouth was roaring with annoyance, but reality could not. He only needs time to be alone, because in Bela's mind only knowing that he is really alone.

"Ma, why did you leave so fast. Bela could not face this cruel world" Her tears flowed back in silence. Wailing in silence heard only by the air.

He hugged his knees while immersing his tear-filled face. Again his heart was comfortable crying in loneliness without anyone knowing.

Life expectancy is only a shadow of him. But he never knew what hope would come after he went through all that bitter taste. Clearly, all are holding onto uncertainty.

Poor girl, crying alone in the corner of the car park. He felt very sad because he always entered a dark circle that never poured the slightest affection.

"Indeed actually dies better" Bela said with a very deep look of despair.

He immediately wiped his tears, looking for a place that was quite high. Seen 3-story parking lot, he immediately ran to the roof of the parking lot with the pain he carried.

His life feels no longer meaningful without a mother who guides the course of Bela's life. He had given up on the bitter life that always shrouded his time.

Arriving at the top, his body felt the tightness of the wind gusts from any direction. His eyes closed for a moment and remembered the beautiful memory even if it was just a little.

In his mind crossed his journey with Roy. Because only Roy is able to calm the restless heart and is able to give a laugh. But now it is gone and not the same as that time.

"It's the best" said Bela as she spread her arms and took a swing to jump.

Desperation has taken hold of a weak heart. There is nothing more to be preserved in a foreign place in his life today. Truly ending life is a short decision to end suffering all at once.

"Don't, don't" Shouted someone from behind and directly hugged Bela tightly, she didn't let Bela jump free and die silly in front of her.

"Let go, my time is up" Bela said with emotion. It felt like there was already no strength to survive in such a harsh world for him. Martial's mentality had weakened slowly.

"What do you want to get, if there's a problem this is not the way" Shouted the woman trying to prevent Bela from doing bad things.

Bela immediately looked back, and it turned out that she was Sela.

His classmates who do not talk much but have a very high concern. Bela did not expect to meet Sela in such a desperate state.

"You why? Don't waste your life" Sela said, hugging her.

Bela's legs felt very limp, he sat back together in the arms of Sela. It feels like Bela's heart has been completely destroyed looking for a foothold that has now been meaningless.

His mind is weak and his brain cannot think clearly and cannot walk properly so choose such shortcuts because of the negative thoughts that are controlling him.