Survive Loving you
chapter 77

Ever since Abimayu heard Ana's conversation with Justin, she had given her distance to come to Ana's house. If he came to see Fatimah, surely he would ask for permission to take Fatimah outside, especially during the working holiday, he would go all day carrying Fatimah along with him.

As of today, he had already planned on taking Fatimah to a playground in the middle of the city, as it was now a weekend.

"Come, Honey. We're leaving!" abimayu said to Fatimah who had been waiting for him since.

Beside Fatimah there is also Ana who is still standing, she just finished fixing the Fatimah hijab which looks messy because a little long waiting for Abimayu to come.

Ana could see the change in Abimayu's attitude, but she didn't really care because she thought it was also good for them not to meet too often later. For a long time he had wanted this, but from before Abimayu seemed to hold on to keep acting like that.

"Good fatimah, yes. And have to hear what Abi says!" Ana said while aligning her body with Fatimah down.

"Mother is also leaving!" take Fatimah to Ana.

"Mother can't go, honey. You're keeping grandma at home." Ana gave an excuse for Fatimah not to force her. These few days it was that reason that could make Fatimah to never force her to come again when she went out with Abimayu.

"Mother come," said Fatimah again who was almost crying.

"Darling...Mommy is right, if Mommy comes along, who will accompany grandma at home? nobody will take care of Grandma." Abimayu tried to help to persuade Fatimah who was already crying strongly.

"Mother's coming." Fatimah repeated her words while continuing to cry.

Abhimayu was guilty because Fatimah was crying.

"Or do we just play at home, how?" tanya Abimayu gave her choice so that Fatimah could stop her crying. If they play at home, then he can still be with Ana.

Fatimah shook her head in a sign that she did not agree with Abimayu's words.

Ana becomes confused to see Fatimah, Usually she also obeys what Abimayu says. But now all the excuses and persuasions they gave, none of them were approved by Fatimah. He still wanted the three of them to go together to the playground he wanted to visit today.

There was no other choice they could make because Fatimah also did not want to stop crying. Kiran's mother Ana had also told them to leave because they did not have the heart to see the grandson who continued to cry.

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"I'm sorry, Mom. You shouldn't have gone here." Abimayu said to Ana as they were waiting for Fatimah who was playing. They sat the long chair in the playground, but not near each other, and from there they could see and watch Fatimah.

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Ana breathed her breath before answering Abimayu's words.

"No problem, maybe he also wants to be accompanied by his two parents while playing like other children." Ana said a little sadly while looking straight ahead at Fatimah who was playing happily.

Ana just silently heard Abimayu speak.

"You should be happy too Ana! You deserve to be happy. Maybe because of Fatimah now you are a little afraid to give a chance to the man who really wants to make you happy."

"What did Mas Abi say?" tanya Ana did not understand the meaning of Abimayu's words.

"You should be happy Ana. During the life with Mas, you never felt happiness, only pain that always gave. Don't be afraid to open your heart again to accept another man who truly loves you."

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Ana's heart beats when Abimayu says so. He recalled when Justin came to the house declaring his intention. He did not know whether Abimayu heard their conversation or not, but he could feel at that moment Abimayu immediately rushed to go home with a facial expression that could not be interpreted by him.

"Did Mas Abi hear Justin's words at that time?" ask Ana to make sure.

"Yes, sorry. But I accidentally heard it." Abimayu said honestly that she had heard their conversation.

"What does Mas Abi think of that?" ask Ana again.

Abimayu looked at Ana beside him who was sitting a long distance away from her. Has Ana not been able to feel her heart all this time? She had already tried to try to get back to him, but Ana really did not give herself a chance. If it wasn't for Fatimah, she might have rarely seen Ana again.

"Mas has already asked you to improve our relationship, and Mas has now realized that it will no longer be able to be repaired. Mas has hurt you too much, so there can no longer be a chance to fix it. Mas just hope you can forgive Mas this time, and Mas will back off."

"Yes, I still feel that pain, especially when I see Fatimah, and I also try to forget everything, because I want to start a new life without being overshadowed by the past." Ana gives an explanation that makes Abimayu absolutely sure she can no longer get Ana back.

"Mas wishes you happiness with your new life." Abhimayu could not help but feel haru in her heart as she spoke the words to Ana, so a tear fell from her eye. He hurriedly wiped it off with one finger of his hand.

"Do Mas Abi know, I don't seem to want anything else in my life, I just want to live with Fatimah until she grows up."

"Let's... Forgive me if living with Mas used to make you afraid to start your new life again. Mas just hope, Mas will still be allowed to meet with Fatimah if you have a new family later. You have to be happy Ana, Mas sure you will get a man who sincerely loves you later."

Abimayu felt a tightness in her chest, she seemed to have given up because she realized Ana would not be able to accept it anymore. All this time he had also been trying, but it seemed like Ana really could not take it anymore. She will retreat and release Ana because she also wants to see Ana happy even though she is not with him anymore.

Abimayu stood up from his seat and then stepped away from Ana, he followed Fatimah to the place where Fatimah played.

Ana sat quietly in her place, and she could see Abimayu approaching Fatimah.

What Ana wants has been achieved, she has realized that all this time Abimayu is still trying to take her heart. But eventually she gives up on her own because Ana really doesn't want to give her a chance.