That man is my husband
Don't remember the past

" Aisha. ...

Calling someone I know very well his voice, I turned to him .I smiled and approached him.

" Are you awake, Bang?"

My brother just answered with a nod and a smile. I really can't bear to see Brother's condition so sad. I try not to show my sadness.

" You still call me brother? wh why? "

" You're older than me, so there's no harm in me calling you that? "

" It's up to you if that call doesn't make you uncomfortable, and doesn't remind you of my cruelty to you"

" Don't talk like that, it's the past, so don't remember. You know, according to Imam Ghazali, the past is a very distant thing .Because we can never go back in the past. Even if we try to come back, but we never can. Likewise we , we do not need to remember especially if we have a mind to suppose - suppose time can be repeated rotate again."

" Thank you for forgiving me"

" To be honest at first I intended not to forgive you, but I realized who I am. I'm just a servant who has no right to hate anything else to hold a grudge against fellow servants.I'm ashamed of my Lord, my Lord has forgiven all of his servants' mistakes no matter how great our mistakes."

" Thank you Ayesha you do have a very noble heart . I'm really a stupid man who's so willing to waste a woman as good as you. Aisyah actually I also want to convey an apology from Lisa to you before she dies "

" I have also forgiven the deceased, may he be at his place by Allah's side and forgiven all his mistakes, and please can you tell me what really happened?."

flsah back on

It was a very difficult and painful day for me, where my wife she continued to rummage in pain on the hospital bed . I tried to strengthen myself .

" Gold me sick, "Lisa's groaning by squeezing my hand.

" Patience baby, you must be strong, you can be" I said to strengthen Lisa.

Even though I was worried and scared. Especially when I heard something that disturbed my heart, on the sidelines of his pain he had - he said something that I did not want to hear at all .

" When I die, please take care of the children. Find Aisyah and until my apology for her",?

"Don't say that, you and our son will be safe, "

" But Lisa is not strong"

I really can't bear to see Lisa in such pain. Lisa's pregnancy was problematic since the birth of 7 months.But she tried to keep the child in her womb.

I screamed for the doctor, to crack down on Lisa at that moment and the cesarean path we took to save both of them. Dann what happened try? Lisa lightly said she wanted to give birth normally and accept all the risks that would happen. Of course I rejected Lisa's crazy idea.

" Lisa what do you mean!!, I snapped.

" the doctor did not listen to my wife, immediately take her to cesar "let me tell the doctor who handles Lisa.

Again he kekeh want to give birth to normal, even he begged - a tree that makes me helpless. She said giving birth to normal is really like being a whole mother, different from a cesar . whereas both of them are the same, both risking their lives.

I was forced to agree and hope that my wife and children could survive.Tak wait so long I finally heard the cry of the baby that made me touched and cry, crying happiness.

Then I So remember Aisyah, she must have wanted me to be next to her, I actually wanted to, even my feelings are not much different from the birth of a second child oh no , I mean the birth of my third child, happy. But my ego is too high, I'm afraid I'm thwarting plans to divorce her. Although I actually did not want to divorce him but again the sense of revenge and satisfaction that I feel stronger and defeat everything.

Now the nurse has brought my son, my hero, from the beginning already knows that my son and Lisa are male. I persecute my son and recite prayer - prayer .

When I finished I came back out, the doctor and nurse looked so panicked. I wonder what is it ? What the hell's going on?

" Sister ..what happened ? why are you guys in and out of my wife's room? I was so curious, though,

" I'm sorry sir, your wife is bleeding heavily and now she's critical" explained the nurse.

How surprised I am, hearing this fact. My body is so limp as it has no bones. My body rested on the hospital wall lamenting the fate of my life like this.

"God what is this punishment, why is my life always in the face of misfortune. Is this karma for me? for what I have done. Arghhh" yelled as he grabbed his hair and cried.

I feel like my life has really been ruined, misfortune for misfortune keeps coming. And now I have to swallow a bitter pill when the doctor says Lisa's in a coma. I thought of my children Shakira and my little hero whom I had not yet given a name. If I am weak like this who will take care of them.

One month ago Lisa had not yet woken up from her long sleep. I was frustrated that I had lost hope. Every day I accompany Lisa and no one takes turns to look after Lisa. No one knows Lisa like this even if it's her family, even for a while I hired a nurse to take care of my two children who are indeed the distance between them is only 2 months adrift.

With the determination that has been unanimous finally I decided to contact the two parents of Lisa in America. Although Lisa From a distance has warned my daughter not to contact her parents if something happens to her, and the reason is only one because both parents are just Lisa's adoptive parents.

Both of Lisa's parents died, Lisa's armpits were still babies and Lisa felt lied to by her parents now, because she was not honest with him.

One week later there were signs from Lisa that she was about to wake up. When I brought my two children and I whispered to Lisa's ears.

" Lisa, wake up! ! look at your children, they need their mothers. Please open your eyes do not continue to sleep, are you not tired hah sleep continuously all day in bed ? don't you want to play with our kids?. Get up quickly we need you and we miss you a lot. "

Then I put my two children near Lisa's arms, to the left of Shakira and to the right of my hero whom I have named Arsya . Shortly from both eyes Lisa shed tears, but her eyes were still closed. So happy I pressed the mereh button on the bed . Doctors and nurses came and checked on Lisa. As for my two children in the crib by Oma and his op from America.

" Doctor, how did it go? my wife was crying, Doc, "

The doctor was so serious about examining Lisa.

"Thankfully, there's a little development, it seems like his subconscious is starting to respond to every word we say, you should just keep giving the patient motivation so he wants to wake up immediately."

" Good doc....

Since that day I every day after work, precisely in the afternoon always bring children, giving encouragement to Lisa to wake up immediately. Qodratullh my efforts are not in vain now Lisa suda can respond to his fingers began to move - motion and slowly he opened his eyes. I'm really happy, I can't feel like I'm revealing what my love was like at the time.

I hugged Lisa, I cried in her arms.

" You wake up, baby ? thank goodness I was happy, " While crying.

" Where is my son? I want to see it ?" he said weak

" Some time we'll bring our son"

I immediately went out and approached my in-laws who were guarding my two children.

" Mom, Dad, Lisa is conscious! " i said to my in-laws and they seemed happy,

Soon maybe we'll see Lisa, first I tell mom and dad-in-law first to see Lisa. At least I hope their relationship improves.

" Lisa's my son, I'm sorry my mom and daddy love" hugged Lisa.

" Mom and Dad are here ? since when ? ask Lisa.

" We've been here for almost two weeks baby, honey will you forgive us ?

Lisa looks so sad,

" Lisa's the one who should be apologizing, not you. I should be grateful to have you as good a foster parent as you guys.I'm sorry mom, dad ." Lisa's

" You're not wrong baby, there's nothing we need to forgive.This is where we're guilty. " Huggle again .

" No ma'am, yeah . Lisa was wrong, before Lisa left Lisa wanted to forgive Mom and Dad" he said so weak.

" Don't talk like that Lisa, you'll recover and you see (pointing at Shakira and Arsya who are on my lap by Rudi and Lisa's father) 'they need you"

" Well, where's my son? bring it here I want to see it"

I walked up to him holding Arsya, then I handed her over to Lisa for her lap.

" What name do you name our son, ? " striking Arsya's cheek

" Arsya, Arsya Prasetio's son "

"Good mas, Lisa likes her name. Mas Shakira please bring it here, Lisa misses her too, Lisa wants to pick me up and kiss her. "

I Give Shakira to Lisa, sure enough she immediately holds her two children, she kisses them. And I don't know why I felt something was going to happen. I feel so unsettled, restless.

" Here they are, you just woke up, rest later we play again with our two children" I said while taking over the children.

" Mom, I can you guys come out for a second I want to talk to my husband just by myself",

" Of course, Mom and Dad are going out. And let my granddaughter, Mother take .You guys talk "

After my in-laws left, I sat down on the chair by Lisa's bed.

"What's up ? holding Lisa's hand.

" Find Aisyah mas, I beg you. ...

tbc....