That man is my husband
Will you be my friend? ?

After getting a shout from Irman finally I and my three best friends realized and as soon as possible entered the classroom, before I sit down I take the time to put a letter on Irman's desk that I made last night I hope he reads it.

Irman walked up to his desk before he sat down and his eyes looked at the letter on the table and glanced at me at a glance, and he kept my letter in his bag.

I hope that after he reads it he understands less and will forget me . To just be a friend maybe I would be happy to accept it but if he asks for more than that, of course my answer is not.

At this time I somehow feel Irman just keep focusing on me, even though he is explaining the material but his eyes look like they are pointing at me. Of course it made me ashamed so I bowed my head to avoid looking at him full of a thousand questions.

" Mommy, I feel Mr. Irman is watching you" Sifa said in a whisper

" That's just your feeling, just refocus and listen to Mr. Irman's explanation" my dear. .

" Ih Mami, Sifa is serious huh...." The proof is that mommy also ndukin head that sign mami also felt was being noticed Mr Irman, is he?? ngaku aja Mami "

" No Sifa, this is me again headache so I ndukin head while I massage softly "my words and it is true At this time my head hurts the effect of sleeping too night .

" Mommy is sick ?? We go to the health room, huh? sifa asked so frantically that she made Mery and Risya turn to where Sifa and I were sitting.

" What happened, " said Mery.

" Mommy's sick, but I told her to rest in the infirmary instead of "

" Mommy, what Sifa said is right should mami just take a break "

" It's not necessary, I just have a headache that your response is too excessive" I said

I forget that at this time it is still a learning process, my best friend and I are even cool to debate what is not important in my opinion. I have their headaches, which there are even more headaches. Then came the voice of Deheman whose voice I was very familiar with.

" Ekhm ....What are you guys discussing? it seems serious to the point that I am delivering your material ignored" said Irman and walked closer to my desk and my best friend's desk.

"A.anu sir" said Risya

" Anu Anu what is clear when you speak !!! irman's snapping made the entire class shocked.

I can't accept Irman treating my sahabt like that what else he's gonna crack at him.

" I'm sorry sir, they were just worried about me, so just blame and snatch me not them."

" Why are you?

" So my head hurt sir, but now it's okay, they just overdo it "

" You, you and you took Aisyah to the infirmary" said Irman, pointing her index finger at my three best friends.

Suddenly I refused because I felt no need, but Irman's gaze showed that he did not want to be denied. I finally followed what he wanted, and I could make it an opportunity to stay away from him for a while.

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Now that I am alone in this room, it feels very comfortable to be away from him I take the opportunity for me to sleep so that my head does not hurt anymore. As my eyes began to close I heard someone calling me.

" Aisha How are you doing now? ask Irman.

" Stop don't get close. .. You better get out of here .. It's not good if we're alone "

" I know. .but I want to talk to you about something"

" Will you be my friend Aisha Husnah? irman asked, which surprised me.

" What do you mean? ??

" He if you don't want me to wait for you and tell me to throw away all my feelings then can we be friends like we used to be?

What with my heart Robbi, hearing Irman talk like that makes my heart hurt. Is this not what I want ? but what is it with my heart. My chest is so claustrophobic it feels like I'm crying, Ya Alloh actually who is in this heart of mine and who exactly does my heart want .

" Aisha. .Ayesha. .." Irman's voice resuscitated my daydream

"What? ?

" How do you want, right?? I don't want to because my feelings for you kept us apart and I don't want you to stay away from me Aisyah, if we become friends, hopefully there is no more distance and we can behave appropriately how like a friend.

With hesitation and holding tightness in my heart, I agreed with Irman's offer because this was my wish.

" Well .I'm so happy to hear that I'm sorry, I hope that you say that there's no more awkwardness between us. Irman I'm sure you'll definitely get a good woman because you're also a good man, May Allah soon bring her together with you."

" Thank you for the prayer" Irman said in a very disappointed tone .

O heart at peace with circumstances, realize, O heart you have someone who has not let you betray the owner of this heart. I realized that maybe the feeling was so tight to hear Irman say that he wanted to be a friend and tried to forget his feelings for me, maybe it was just a form of response to my surprise. I realize this heart belongs only to Brother .

no one will ever be able to replace her even if it's Irman my first love.

I'm sure as sure as I'm sure that my feelings for Irman are no longer there , the feeling that I often feel when with Irman maybe it's because I know he loves me to make me misbehave and make my heart fucked.

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Drt. ..Drt. ....

My phone vibrates visible on the screen of the name of Brother's phone.

" Ashalamu'alikum. ..Where's brother?

" Wa'alaikum salam, Abang is on the deck road, sorry deck yh today Adek went home alone again well brother no need. And later tonight adek do not wait for Brother, just sleep first "

" He's Brother, he will go home not really late at night well Adek lonely know."

" Amafin Abang, Abang Janji after work Abang finished Brother will continue to make Adek "

" Promise yh.."

" Yes Abang Janji, yaudah Abang first close the phone. ..Drug adek. ..

" Drug Brother. .

tuuuttt

phone connection disconnected. .

Hah, I can only sigh rudely again-in Abang's stay. What work keeps you coming home the night goes on and forgets me. But I realize I can't be selfish maybe you're a lot of work ..Moreover, Brother is pursuing a career as a lawyer I have to support him and dispose of all bad thoughts.