OPEN YOUR MASK, PRINCESS!
Episode 187 I GAVE UP LOVING YOU
Today I decided to give up …
Surrender from the pretense that my heart is strong and fragile
Giving up hope on something I know not for me
Surrender from the long and endless wait
Give yourself up on the decision to stop loving you
_Quote of Stevan_
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All night until dawn broke, Stevan was never delivered to the dream world. The stronger he forced himself to fall asleep, the more chaotic his tangled mind became. Dina's advice yesterday was so distracting to the mind that it even shook her half-dead optimism.
Depending on you, want to lose completely because of impossible expectations or stay together as friends.
It was Dina's words that revolved around the recording of Stevan's brain. Selow but pierced sharply up to the crown. Stevan was cornered by a choice between imposing his will and the risk of losing or letting go and
still together in the name of friendship? As a result of his confused feelings, he just wanted to be the most important part of Weini's life. Why should it be so hard?
The blinds blocking the morning sunlight blinded his room. Stevan stood upright staring at the sky with infinite breadth then looked down from the skyscraper he lived in. He started thinking, it's just a point of view. Where he stands and where he spreads his views, there is an answer. He must choose between staring into the infinite sky – he is likened to taking off, or staring into the terrifying bottom abyss – ties that do not want to be tied.
Stevan grabbed his phone, he was clearly aware of what he was going to do. While his heart has not changed his mind, while still being able to think more clearly. He has to make a decision!
*Call Weini….*
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Weini had just canceled Dina's intention to pick her up, in fact Dina had already agreed to go to the set together since yesterday. Weini was forced to lie a little to cover up the truth from her manager in order to follow Stevan's request. The actor asked her to keep their meeting a secret from
anyone including Dina.
The reason that made Weini could not bear to refuse Stevan's request was because the man's voice sounded raucous and sad. His invitation word was simple, but it sounded touching feeling as if the man was facing his pessimism alive.
“Weini, ntar I picked ya. Let's go to the loksyut. Someone wants me to take it. Plis.” Those are the words that put Weini down. Their relationship had just improved after an argument at Stevan's apartment that time. At least Weini wanted to give Stevan a chance to express his interests. He realized that the presence of the man yesterday was certainly important but because there was Dina among them, he might undo the intention.
Weini polished her lips with a matte lipstick of nude color, her long lashes of alsi lentic became a special attraction. If to just hang out or a private event, he does not need to use thick makeup. This is how she is so beautiful naturally. Weini flattened out the color of her polished lips, she smilingly stared at her reflection before moving on.
Home in a state of desolation, Haris since the morning bampit visit om Felix and leave breakfast for Weini. He was forced to touch his rations even though the stomach was still ogah accept any intake, but Weini was reluctant to disappoint Haris labor. Weini scooped up a little bit of the already cold chicken porridge
that, despite instructions to heat up again but Weini was already lazy ribet.
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And they end up in an elite southern cafe, befriending two cups of mocha lattes and a few snacks. Just looking at it had made Weini feel full, but it was better to let Stevan take over the atmosphere. The man remained silent the whole time they were together.
“Oya said you were my co-star again in my latest action movie later? We are one more project brother ..” said Weini crisp, he is not good at finding topics let alone told to open the conversation. His smile was even half-meaked and his stiffness was obvious.
Stevan was not interested in discussing it, he was silent for a long time because he thought of how to convey his heart. There is still some doubt about the decision he made. Weini looks tempting, his willingness to accept the invitation without rejecting which makes Stevan worried. He felt the fresh breeze and the pseudo hope
shake up the initial goal.
“Ehem, Weini .. I invite you to meet there is something I want to say. Serious ...” Stevan was initially a bit awkward but after opening the conversation, slowly he began to master himself and seriously.
Weini looked at Stevan, the man she had known for more than a year. Almost every day, all day with him. The intensity of their meeting a little made Weini know what Stevan's attitude was like when he meant it. He nodded as a sign of agreement to listen to the seriousness of what Stevan was going to say.
Stevan shifted his gaze momentarily from the shady look of Weini's pair of eyes. His gaze was fixed on the cup whose contents were still intact. “Gue already thought of this, overnight .. I do not know exactly when I began to fall in love, same you .. when you appeared innocently, full of talent and beautiful.” Stevan stopped talking, smiling grinning at his own confession. While Weini was still putting on a face with a flat expression, as if such praise and seduction no longer worked.
“Gue may forget when I fell in love, but I will not forget when I stopped falling deeper in love. So ... Weini, I've decided to stop loving you counted since this second I revealed.” Plongs. Stevan's heart was finally able to express the contents of the heart without stammering.
Weini was surprised, a transparent and honest confession. He could feel the earnestness of Stevan's confession and was greatly relieved. He will not regret the passing of a love, a feeling that is always ready to encourage him, who awaits him tired with inner fatigue. He spread the widest and most sincere smile he ever had for Stevan.
“I'm happy with the determination to move on you brother. Really, you deserve to be happy with the same great love from someone who is sincere with you.” Weini. But I am not the one .. Weini continued muttering in his heart. He must hold every word from what he feels in order not to hurt.
Stevan smiled wryly, Weini's mainstream prayer of hope was mocking. Though the expectations presented by Weini were sincere, but not timely to sound annoying to Stevan who was not ready to hear.
“Lu said we will never see you again, like farewell prayer. So happy!” said Stevan who finally leaked also cursed.
Weini smiled, this is Stevan whom she knew as usual. “Ya maap, sorry ..”
“Gue retreats from love to advance our friendship. You and I are friends forever! That's if you want ...” said Stevan casually, but he was anxious about Weini's response to his offer. The girl was still silent, as if Stevan could read her heart.
“Mmm .. I made this decision because I couldn't bear to make you sick. We have often fought, well again, fought again, better again because of the same reason. My selfishness maxain will to you. We do not need a hut if our feelings of affection are only limited to the right position, I do not use the mode. I've established the rightful position ama lu.” Timpal Stevan is serious.
Weini was moved, Stevan's recognition, sincerity and even his sacrifice so far finally led to the wisest decision. Without love, no one gets hurt. The more love, the greater the pain of loss. Although some say between men and women there will be no true friendship, especially with the past that has loved. But Stevan's seriousness just now left Weini with no reason to give him a chance.
“Alright brother, we are in office now and forever.” Weini thrust out her cup looking forward to Stevan's toas.
Stevan smiled as he lifted the cup and replied to Weini's toas. “For new sheet as friend. Weini should be happy ...”
“Sister Stevan should also be happy!”
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