
Until noon, Dewi was still in front of the ICU room waiting for Bening, the younger sister he loved.
His phone has been ringing ever since, but Dewi did ignore all the calls and deliberately did not open a short message sent from the service bureau where he worked.
Atta looked at the Goddess from a distance
He knew how unfortunately the Goddess was to Bening, his sister. The sacrifice of the Goddess to this point seeks Bening to survive and if there is a miracle Bening can heal completely.
His eyes stared at the ICU room. He even forgot that he was hungry because he had not filled his stomach with lunch.
"Eat, here I bring you lunch. Since morning, I have seen that you have not eaten anything" Dr Atta told Dewi, giving her a bag of plastuk lunch in the hospital cafeteria and mineral water.
The goddess looked at Atta. Atta is good. Only Atta who has been able to exchange ideas and be talked from heart to heart about anything, not only about Bening but also the future.
Goddess's hand stalled to receive the plastic bag and said, "Thank you Doctor Atta."
Slowly the Goddess opened the plasrik containing lunch for her. As usual, Dr. Atta knew exactly what food the Goddess liked.
Doctor Atta sat down next to the Goddess and helped the girl open the mineral bottle to drink the Goddess later.
Mixed rice packed on medium-sized steroform. This menu is already very special and makes the Goddess repeatedly say thank you.
Some mouthfuls escaped into the mouth of the Goddess while being pushed with mineral water that makes the chew easier to enter the esophagus.
"I have to go to America. There was a comparative study there, and I was willing to go there for a few years. Maybe there will be other doctors who menggantukan I treat Bening specifically," said Atta slowly without glancing at the Goddess who was surprised to choke and cough to hear the words of Seriua doctor Atta.
Uhuk ... The sound of the cough was getting louder and could not stop until the doctor Atta gave a bottle of drinking water containing mineral water that had been uncapped to the Goddess for immediate drinking.
The goddess drank a few sips of mineral water straight from the bottle and stared fixedly at Atta who had no smile at all. His face really looks serious.
"You want to go to America for hospital work? Then, Bening how? You don't pity me, right?" ask Goddess slowly.
Atta turned her head towards the Goddess and returned the gaze of the girl who had been filling the niches of her heart with feelings of affection.
"If I may take it to America. I'll take Bening there for even better grabs," said Atta seriously as she stared fixedly at the Goddess's eyes which quickly shook her head.
"can't. Don't you take Bening there. Without you even the doctor, Bening would be cured. I've been trying hard for his recovery," said Dewi slowly.
"OKAY. That's your decision. I just wanted to tell you about my departure. Take care of Bening well," said Atta quietly with a sad look.
In his heart actually never sincerely left the Goddess and Bening. I don't know why Atta was so comfortable with the two women
But ... there is no way he can get the Goddess as his life partner later. Although Atta knows, this is all just a drama. It is not possible after they divorced Atta proposed to Dewi to be a real wife.
Do not feel the tears of the Goddess dripping escaped from her two beautiful eyelids. When the lashes flattened slowly, the clear circle of tears that look so sincere.
"Are you sure it's a hospital assignment? Not because I want to stay away from you? You hate me the same? Because I'm just a woman who works for a rental? And I happen to be rented by your own sister? You're angry about this? Because you know the truth?" accuse the Goddess of right and right.
"So. Not at all," replied Atta as tight as it felt in the chest. He only smiled wryly without looking at the Goddess.
"You lied, right?" ask Goddess slowly.
"So. From the beginning I knew you, I was always who I was" said Atta fiercely.
Disappointed with the Goddess. He regretted meeting and knowing the Goddess. Even worse, he loved the Goddess. It's a regret that never ends. Because it was difficult to release the Goddess from his heart.
"I'm sorry, Doctor Atta. It's myjob. That's why I never want to be involved with romance or love stories with anyone as long as I'm still working in this bureau will certainly complicate my own and my relationships with others. Everything's gonna be complicated. I still have feelings for someone in my past. I just left and I feel guilty until now," said Dewi slowly explained.
"Why should you explain it to me? I'm not who you are, Wi. We only deal in hospitals, between patients and doctors. Not more. At home, our relationship is only limited to brother-in-law and sister-in-law. Whatever your mission with Rangga, it's none of my business, and I don't want to know about it" Atta said slowly.
His heart was mixed. All tastes become unbecoming. Want to cry but he is a man with a doctor profession, want to put where his face if he cries. Moreover, his cry because of a woman who never returned his love. Pupus.
"I'm sorry. Go if it is a task and go so that you are more successful than you are now. Hopefully Bening can have a doctor who is as good as you," said Dewi slowly.
The Goddess stood up and tidied up all her food that had not been finished. He was not appetite at all. It feels like to quickly stay silent in a quiet room and cry as it happens.
"Arghhh what's wrong with me? Why am I sad when Doctor Atta wants to leave? Why should I not be willing? Why do I feel like I still need him near me? All this time, I've been dependent on him?" said Dewi lirih when entering the bathroom near the hospital's ICU room.
The tears of the Goddess are truly unstoppable. He sat on a closed toilet and covered his face with his palms that had been wet since.
When the Goddess left her seat and left Atta alone, she threw all the food in the trash.
Atta just stared at the girl he liked leaving. He knew the Goddess was also open to his words. But only in this way, Atta wanted Dewi to hate him and be thought to be the doctor in charge. Let the Goddesses hate it and then never see it again in a long time.
Atta had been looking for a special doctor for Bening as long as he went and remained in his monitor even far away.
"I'm sorry, Wi. If you know how I feel. I'm heartbroken. I'm disappointed. I'm jealous. But .. I'm not who you are, I have no right to do that to you. You're free. You have the right to decide. Because you have the power to choose" Atta said in her heart.
Atta walked towards that translucent glass. He saw that Bening was still the same. No change at all.
"Doctor Atta was called the professor on the second floor," a nurse called Atta.
Atta immediately walked up the stairs to the upper floor to the professor's room.
Tok ... tok ...
"Excuse me Prof. What's calling me?" ask Atta slowly.
"Look doctor Atta. This is doctor Praise who will replace you in this hospital. He will also take care of the clear. He's an internal organ specialist. Clear certainly can be better even if there is no you," said professor slowly encouraging Atta.
This opportunity is a second chance. Last year Atta was also offered this doctor exchange program. As a young doctor and many achievements, Atta sellau was nominated for this major program. But at that time he preferred his ego to stay with Bening and Dewi. He did not want to pursue his world because he wanted to have a real life as well.
But the hope is wrong. He was wrong to give heart to a woman who only considers him as a friend even more than that.
So, this second chance he decided unanimously to come. Leave all his feelings and mulain ocus on his profession.