The Substitute Mother?
14. Go away

Standing in front of the Ocean room, Tatiana was immediately struck by nervousness. There is a curiosity as to whether the Ocean will keep it cool as before and ask him to come home soon or accept his sudden arrival.

Tatiana's hand was raised. At first he wanted to knock on the door, but out of nowhere, his hand grabbed the door handle and turned it around. With a chaotic feeling, Tatiana pushed the door wide open.

Tatiana's heart immediately raced so fast. Eyes rounded. Chests rumbling. His eyes were hot, but his palms felt ice-cold.

"Tiana," exclaimed the surprised Ocean when he saw the existence of Tatiana with a paled face.

The ocean quickly pushed someone who was hugging him. The woman clucked, then turned her head towards Tatiana. A line of mocking smiles rose on the lips of the woman who was none other than the Triani.

"I'm sorry, Mom, if my arrival interrupts!" he said with a facial expression made as if nothing had happened. As usual. Calm down his heart that seemed to want to rebel out. He did not want to show the expression of his defeat in front of the two people who had destroyed it. "I just want to deliver this," he said as he lifted a row containing lunch for the Ocean. Although Tatiana tried to act calm, but the Ocean could feel a tremor in her voice.

"Tiana, Mas no ... "

"Tiana, go home first, Mas. Kasian about Ana nyariin I suddenly say. You see, I was staying fit still asleep," he said still with a sweet smile on his lips.

"Then I go home first, Mas, Ma'am" he said again, nodding at the two men. Then Tatiana stretched out her hand to the Ocean. With his chest rumbling ever more so, he greeted and kissed the back of a hand that he might never touch again after this.

"Assalamu'alaikum," he said with a netra that began to fog.

Tatiana immediately turned her body to pass. He wanted to save his heart that had been crushed to pieces. The ocean was about to chase Tatiana because she could see the lightning of pain and disappointment, but Triani's hand held her back.

"Where are you going, brother?"

"Deliver!" jolt the Ocean while throwing Triani's hand.

"Sister, why are you ... "

The ocean raised her palm gesturing for Triani not to continue her words.

The ocean immediately turned her body about to resume chasing Tatiana, but just a few steps, a nurse called out to her.

Ocean clucking. With a cold face, he looked at the nurse. The nurse shuddered to herself to see the expression of the Ocean that seemed to want to swallow him alive.

"What?"

"Doctor, the condition of the patient in jasmine room number 101 suddenly weakened," the nurse reported. The patient was an ocean patient. The patient had been in the hospital for nearly a month because of kidney failure.

The ocean is now at a crossroads, he is confused which one he should do first. But given his vow as a doctor, Samudera had to suppress his desire to pursue Tatiana and prefer to see the state of the patient who is his responsibility. He thought he could explain what really happened to Tatiana after her return from the hospital. The ocean immediately ran towards the room where the patient ignored the existence of Triani who was still in his room.

Triani clucked in annoyance. But his regret has now changed to a wide smile. With her chin raised, Triani headed straight for the hospital parking lot.

Upon arrival, as she expected, Tatiana was still in her car. Tatiana cupped her face in the car. From her trembling shoulders, Triani could see that Tatiana was crying. There was no sense of pity or guilt in Triani's mind. He smiled broadly triumphantly.

Tok tok tok tok

Triani smiled cynically, "give up because whenever you can never win the heart of Brother Sam," said Triani who was like a slogan right raining in the recesses of the heart.

Tatiana admitted, what Triani said is true. Even until their marriage entered the second year, he could not melt the heart of the Ocean in the slightest.

Tatiana was just mumbling. Say she is a weak woman who replies to Triani's words can't. Even until Triani passed from before her, Tatiana remained in her silence.

Returning home, Tatiana entered the house with slow steps. He noticed that every wall that passed, the wall was still the same as it was two years ago. What depends, what is displayed, is all the same. There is not even a single photo of the late Triana descended from the predominantly white wall.

Tatiana suddenly felt so foreign to the house she had lived in for 2 years. Tatiana continued walking until she reached the wall slightly behind. He stared at a frame that became the only place his wedding photos with the Ocean on display. The photo was hung by her mother-in-law's coercion.

Actually her mother-in-law wanted to put the photo in the living room, replacing the wedding photos of Ocean and Triana, but the Ocean was furious. He did not allow anyone to take down or change the photos of his late wife. Mother Samudera finally relented and hung a wedding photo Tatiana and Ocean in a place that is only visible when someone passed by to the kitchen. Only that wall had room to hang photos.

Tatiana sobbed while covering her mouth. He recalled what Triani said earlier.

"Rightly what Mbak Triani said earlier if I arrive at any time it will not be possible to win the heart of Mas Samudera. This seems to be the end of my struggle. Sorry, I chose to give up. I can no longer bear the burden of this suffering alone. You're too far away for me to reach. The wall between us is too high and strong for me to tear down. Let alone reaching, touching your heart even if I can not and until anytime will not be able. Let me bring a part of you. Think of this as the last memory you leave me with" he said, wiping his flat stomach. "It seems true, love does not have to have. Looks like you can find the figure you love from Ms. Triani. Hopefully with my departure, you can find your happiness. I don't want to be a barrier to your happiness, Mom. Let me give up. Think of this as proof of my love for you," he added, wiping away tears streaming down his cheeks.

Tatiana rushed into her room. He cleaned up his stuff and put it in a big enough bag. He only takes things that are placed in his name. After putting her clothes in the bag, Tatiana chuckled incisively, even most of the contents of the closet were the belongings of the late Triana. Tatiana never bothered any of those things. He does not want to cross his boundaries.

Before leaving, Tatiana went into Ariana's room first. He then sat on the edge of the bed and rubbed the top of the child's head, he continued with affection.

"Darling, sorry if you finally have to go. Take good care of yourself! Mommy loves you so much" he said, then kissed Ariana's forehead deeply and soulfully.

Afterwards, Tatiana went out of the room to look for Bi Una who had just woken up to take a nap.

"Sir, can you ask for help?"

"Oah mbak, please ask for help all. Tell me, Mbak Tiana wants anything, no need to hesitate like that," said Mbok Una while smiling.

"Here, bik, please iron this shirt yes. This is Mas Sam's favorite shirt. Youtar he ngomel see his shirt is really tangled like gini," said Tatiana while giving up a shirt that does look tangled.

Actually Tatiana did it just for diversion because she was going to leave the house secretly. He didn't want to talk too much or explain why he left. Bik Una also received the shirt. Actually Bik Una already felt a strange premonition after staring at Tatiana's face. Moreover, Tatiana's eyes still look puffy, but Bik Una does not want to talk much let alone ask. He must be aware of his position in the house. Even though his master was being kind, it did not mean that he could freely speak as he pleased.

When Bik Una entered the ironing room, Tatiana quickly picked up the bag containing her belongings and placed it in the car. Not forgetting he put his phone in a drawer. He did not want his existence tracked just because of the phone.

Before actually leaving, he looked upon it once again the house that had been his palace for these two years. With tears in her eyes, Tatiana immediately drove her car out of the yard of the house.

"Goodbye, Mom. I apologize for my presence you never wanted."

This sentence Tatiana wrote on a paper that she left in the room. This sentence is also what Tatiana said when the car he drove out of the yard of the house owned by the Ocean.

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