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Anastasia—

Being famous isn't always okay, I don't think I know what other people think. Some people I know really want to be in my position, and they're so jealous of what I've achieved so far. They only saw what was seen on the outside, without knowing how I struggled to get to the top of a career like this.

Yes, I know it's a risk when I've jumped into this world, I know very well from the beginning what I will accept. It's just that, when things don't go right, other things will also be affected. At the moment that is not going well is my health, the manager has even made a more regular schedule and schedule to take vitamins. Everything is well scheduled, if only I follow the rules.

It seems like Tamara's stubbornness has poisoned my head well, then permeated to the roots of my head well too. Maybe this is also the influence of our friendship that has been very long, so that its nature will also be contagious to us.

“You don't take vitamins, do you? Did you see this bottle? The number of capsules has not decreased at all since two days ago.” Nimas—managerku— poked the medicine bottle in front of my face, he was very angry and also upset. I can read his tense face. Who would dare to refute him if Nimas were already like this?

“Even Mbak to calculate the capsule in it. Mbak again join or how?” many sarcas.

You should know that this Nimas is very stubborn and likes to impose the will of others on what he wants. I understand why he did it, because of the responsibility of course and the duty he has. Sometimes it doesn't matter to me, but at a time like this I can't accept anything.

Since this morning, my mood has been very messy and I don't know the cause at all. I'm not having pms or anything, it's just that I've been feeling bad since.

“You know Wira, right?” ask Nimas.

I who was focusing on my phone, straightened up and looked at Nimas who was also busy alone with the tablet in his hand. Maybe I'm arranging my next schedule, I don't know, I don't care, all I care about is Nimas's words about the Hero.

“Why?” My joyful face, instantly turned into a very indifferent face. Nimas can't know about my love for Wira, just don't want any further problems.

“She ngajuin cooperation project, the proposal has already entered, later we go to the office to read the contract letter.”

Nimas, as usual, only showed an indifferent face. I was even surprised, what was in his head at this moment, as well as the other moments? During my time as manager, I never saw him absent from this job. I mean, that's great, but on the one hand for me to see it, I don't like it.

He has to go out often to date, maybe, or just hang out with his friends. The things that young people of his age usually do and me too. Nimas's age is only two years different from mine.

“What project?” my many.

“I don't know for sure, what I heard was his personal project. Six months away he will not be exhibiting for the fifth celebration of the year he is in this industry.”

Wouldn't this be a huge honor for me. This man is a man I like, and he asked me to be a model that will be on display for his five-year celebration. For me who's been keeping the taste for her, it's so beautiful. If without the agency's intervention, maybe I'll just take it for granted.

“If this is in good interest, I will immediately receive, Ma'am,”.

“Well, still the highest decision is in Mbak Bintang. You know for yourself how his money eyes are. If this project is not profitable, it is impossible to accept.”

Mbak Bintang, my boss and also Mbak Nimas who is also the owner of an old agency. She is a very assertive and money-oriented career woman, as it is. Which business does not think about profits. Later when I am independent and able to build my own agency, I will certainly get out of here.

If indeed Mbak Bintang will reject this proposal, then I myself will intervene to convince Mbak Bintang. I'm a little good at persuading others.

**

Actually, I don't have a regular day off, it all depends on whether or not a lot of job offers come. Since this was the pinnacle of my career, I pretty much had a photo shoot schedule, be it a magazine or a commercial.

With a lot of guts, I decided to go out alone to the mall, on the sidelines of my holiday which was only one day. It's not a full day off, because it's a day where I only have one schedule, and it's also delayed because of technical problems.

So, here I am. With a hat and mask, and clear glasses so that not recognized by many people. I'm not that confident, but this is just in case, if anyone recognizes me. I don't want to be on the phone with Ms. Nimas or anyone from the agency to be banned from leaving the house.

Before starting my career as a model, I always wanted to be able to walk in the mall only alone. Then, only today did I get a chance to make this happen.

Trust me, I just want to drive around this mall, eat, and then go home. That's all I want to do. Simple but also very useful for me, to just fight stress as possible.

The proposal that has been sent by the Wira has not been completed in the study by the agency, maybe tomorrow will be our meeting to discuss this issue. If only I had the power to directly say ‘ya’ without the need for various meetings.

“Sorry, Ma'am. But this afternoon our table is full, maybe you can wait first if you really want to have lunch here,” said a waiter at one of the restaurants I visited.

It's only natural that the restaurant is full, because it's lunchtime and the one I'm visiting is one of the more famous dining outlets. So, you can imagine how crowded this restaurant is.

Only breath I can give in response. Do I have to go around the whole mall just to find food? Just be right.

“She is with me.”

I was a little surprised to hear that voice, as well as when he took me to his desk. I don't know who said it yet, because it was so sudden.

“I'm sorry, did I surprise you?” ask her as soon as we sit at her table.

Guess who that guy is? Well, that's Wira. I was also very surprised when I saw that face, I never thought that I would meet him in this place. I'm a little grateful to be out at this point, believe me if I miss this face so much, when I only met him a while ago.

“Ah, yes, I was a little surprised. How can I be here?” my many a little stammered.

“It just so happens that again around here, you are alone?”

“Yes, so the makeup is like gini.” I laughed awkwardly in response to his question.

“You heard about the proposal I submitted?”

I nodded my head while stirring the tomato juice that had just been delivered by the waiter. Wherever, I still always remember to eat healthy food, or I will get a long lecture from Mbak Nimas.

“The plan is tomorrow we will hold a meeting about the proposal. Or maybe this meeting was on purpose?”

“This meeting was completely unintentional, I don't want you to think badly of my presence here.”

Inevitably, I laughed a little with the sentence that was just thrown by Mas Wira. I don't even care if we meet intentionally or not, the main point here is that I can see his face outside the shooting area. With only a t-shirt and jeans torn on both knees, no one would have thought if he was thirty-two.

“Who knows, Mom? It could have been set, right?”

“Well, then I can present all the proposals I sent, right? Mumpung there is a model directly here,” Goda Mas Wira.

Ah, if I were alone in my room, I might scream with excitement and run around my room with a pretty big smile. I was completely infatuated with a Duke of Wiryatama.

“And I will ask for more payment, other than the one you mentioned in the proposal.”

Mas Wira laughed a little in response to my words. I don't know what I did last night until this afternoon I got the most beautiful gift like this. This is my first time chatting casually with Mas Wira, please don't ask me again how I feel. I could actually buy Tamara all the fancy bags she wanted like this, because of the happiness I felt.

**

“I can not think that this project of Duke Wiryatama can make Anastasia's popularity increase. This is just an exhibition that he will hold to celebrate five years of his career in the world of photography, I think there is nothing special about this project,” Mbak Bintang said aloud.

At the meeting table consisting of only five people, including me and Mbak Nimas, the atmosphere was quite relaxed because it had just started fifteen minutes ago. I already know what you're going to say, Madam Bintang, it's hard to agree to a project just like that.

“But, the results of all the photo sales tickets will go to the Indonesian cancer foundation, I think it will have a positive impact on the image of Anastasia.”

That's the marketing staff. I just nodded my head to follow the flow of this meeting, because usually I only attend to hear the results of the meeting itself, sometimes maybe I will be asked for an opinion. That's all I'm doing here.

“As a whole after I read the contents of the proposal, nothing harms us. During this time also the relationship of Anastasia and Duke Wiryawan is quite good, there is no harm also if we accept this project. I'm sure the result will be good for both sides.” This time, Nimas gave his opinion.

Want to know something really surprising? Mbak Nimas and Mbak Bintang are siblings, their nature is almost the same and also Mbak Bintang is very respectful of all the decisions of the younger brother. Well, so I'm quite grateful to Mbak Nimas who said that sentence. Remind me to eat with him later.

“How about you, Nas?” ask the Stars.

“I personally liked what he put in that proposal. But it all comes back to you guys again, I'll just follow what you choose.”

Believe me, if in my heart I smile so wide, so wide that it feels like my chest will explode because of the excessive pleasure I feel. I don't need to be afraid anymore, because I've made sure this project will run smoothly.

“Where are the results? As you want, right?” ask Mbak Nimas. After the brief meeting, we went straight to the next schedule.

“That is, Ma'am?”

Ma'am Nimas glanced at me meaningfully before smiling slightly, which also contained something I didn't know. There's no way he knows about my feelings, right? Because all this time he seemed to have paid no attention to him at all.

“You think I don't know that you've always liked this Hero-Wira?”

If I could usually control my facial expression, this time I couldn't. I stared at the horror of Madam Nimas, this woman is really something, I felt stupid all along. I don't know since when he knew all this, I was so afraid to know things like that.

“Why are you getting started?” ask Mama Nimas again.

Then what should I do after he says it all? I'd be more comfortable if nobody knew how I felt, but this is so different. It would feel awkward, even if only I would feel it.

“Well, he's kind and friendly, who doesn't like him? I'm sure Mommy is too.” I turned my gaze to the car window, wherever it was not looking at Ms. Nimas. I have absolutely no face to stare at the face of Madam Nimas.

“I feel the same way too, but I don't really like it.”

Damn it, Sister Nimas. I want it to disappear right now. “Well, maybe our taste is different, Ma'am.”

This time I heard Nimas' laughter, which somehow sounded annoying. Maybe it's because he's my manager, so he's too sensitive to notice all my gestures. It's not his fault either.

“I won't tell this to anyone, I just happen to know aja.”

In the end, I kept looking back to look at Mbak Nimas. Maybe I can apply to change the manager, but I'm too comfortable with Nimas. Since the beginning of my career, I have been with him.

“How can Mbak know?” my many.

“Your expression is clearly read, Nas. Maybe because I took care of you from the beginning too, so it's very easy to know.” Mbak Nimas shrugged both of his shoulders and still smiled amused— which pisses me off.

“For now, focus on your career first. Do not let Mbak Bintang know, you are currently at the top of your career. Don't let gossip change everything.”

**